My fiance said he wants to take me shopping for pretty new clothes...
It's so hard to express myself. I wish I could tell him honestly how much those words meant to me.
I also wish I could tell him that new clothes wouldn't make me feel pretty. I wish I could explain that nothing would make me pretty. But that would just hurt him more.
Some days I'm really irritable and I take it out on him. Sometimes I really take him for granted. It's hard for him to deal with my trauma and I understand that. I understand that he doesn't understand how much it still affects me. Why can't I always remember what a caring and supportive man he is? I love him so much, I wish I could be the woman that he deserves.