Anyways, I was reading this user's posts. A lot of her posts had been deleted because they triggered her or made her dissociate. Suddenly I felt this surge of anger towards myself.
YOU DON'T BELONG HERE.
I have no triggers. No flashbacks or nightmares. There's nothing left to deal with.
How could you even compare yourself to these girls? They are here for real reasons. They really need help. You don't need help. Your brain is taking care of that, keeping that black hole to protect you. You've already said everything there is to say. You can't suffer from something that isn't there. You don't deserve to be here like these girls do.
All I do is bitch and complain, and create new problems for myself and my fiance. I know i'm allowed to feel hurt for what happened to me, but I think i've already felt all the pain i'm allowed to feel by now. There is nothing else for me to do, I suppose I should accept my past and just get over it...