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Posted by ptsdthrowmeaway , 07 August 2012 · 26 views

I'm in therapy and on medication, but sometimes I still feel stuck. I'm trapped running in place. I think it's important for me to reach out when I feel like this, so that I can keep moving forward instead of taking steps backwards. That's why I joined this online community.

I don't even know where to start sharing my story. Every board that pertained to my incident made my head spin. I can never find a story that's like mine though. It makes me wonder whether I belong here. Do I deserve the comfort and support that other people need so badly? If I can't remember the actual experience, even though I know it happened, doesn't that mean I was anesthetized and I don't deserve to complain as much?

Even so, I have been in a lot of pain lately. Writing has been kind of therapeutic recently, so I thought maybe I should start with a blog. I have created journals of my memories and experiences. Many people might find these entries to be obscene and profane, so I completely understand if my post is removed or if I am banned from using the blogs. I would like everyone to know that there may be a very high trigger warning for the rest of my blog. I'm sorry for anyone who feels pain from reading this, and I will delete any post as soon as requested.

I hope I can reach out into the forums soon. I want to stress that I'm using this blog as a way to get acquainted with this community and to learn how to express myself.

Thank you for your support

April 2016

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