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Letter to my Dad

23 September 2012
Posted by ptsdthrowmeaway  
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Hey, Dad.

I have to tell you something. You're not gonna like it.

You're REALLY not gonna like it.

I want to tell you that it's not my fault, but I still don't completely believe that. I want to tell you what happened, but I keep putting it off. I can't tell Mom either.

Something bad happened...
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Wake up.

18 September 2012
Posted by ptsdthrowmeaway  
Ugggghhhh, what's wrong with me?!

I can't wake up in the morning without my fiance there to kick me out of bed. I sleep through multiple alarms, I even turn them off in my sleep and can't remember doing it. Usually my fiance eventually manages to wake me up when he's tired of hearing my alarms going off.

Last night I...
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Can't keep female friends

17 September 2012
Posted by ptsdthrowmeaway  
I'm sorry again for not responding to everyone's comments- i'm putting all my effort into school today, but right now my head is kinda in a mess.

I got a call from one of my female former coworkers. Not a big deal, but I was never that close to this girl and she always considered us friends for some reason.

Another girl who I used...
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Thank you :]

17 September 2012
Posted by ptsdthrowmeaway  
I am shocked by the number of wonderful comments I have gotten today. I wish I could respond to each of you personally, but I don't have much time to night. I just want to thank all of you for your support! Everyone has been so kind, and validated my feelings. I'm not feeling so alone now :] thank you so much <3

Tonight I...
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New topic

16 September 2012
Posted by ptsdthrowmeaway  
I decided to request a topic in "types of sexual assault discussions" today... I wonder if there are other people on here who were coerced and assaulted by a couple. Like a man and his girlfriend, who were really just acquaintances.

I dunno, I guess I'm just feeling lonely.
I don't know if this is worth anyone's time. But...
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The Island with no lights

16 September 2012
Posted by ptsdthrowmeaway  
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I haven't had much to say lately. I wish I could reach out and be more supportive to other girls on here, but I never know the right thing to say. I know that even just letting someone know that I care is better than saying nothing, but I can never get the wording right....
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Creeper

14 September 2012
Posted by ptsdthrowmeaway  
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I just want to send a big FUCK YOU to the creeper I ran into on Wednesday. He was staring down every girl he walked past and all of us were too scared to say anything to his cat calls. I don't know any of those girls but I wish I had the guts to tell him to choke on a fucking dick so those girls know they...
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Deserve?

12 September 2012
Posted by ptsdthrowmeaway  
I was reading through someone else's posts earlier. Sometimes I do that, read other people's stories. I think I do it so I don't feel as alone. Or maybe to look for ” clues” to put my story together. Or maybe i'm just a sick voyeur.

Anyways, I was reading this user's posts. A lot of her posts had been deleted because...
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This week....

10 September 2012
Posted by ptsdthrowmeaway  
I overslept and was late to my t appointment on Friday. I wanted to talk more about my anger and what was in the letters I gave her, but we only had half an hour to catch up on my job situation and advice.

The important thing, she said, is to get myself back on a regular sleep schedule. Gonna be hard when i'm spending nights like these...
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Let me start off by saying that I think my therapist is awesome and I couldn't imagine working with anyone else. A lot of times though, we have these long, awkward pauses. She's waiting for me to say something while I'm wishing she would ask me a question, and I'm looking around...
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