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And so it continues...

Posted by shatteredAli , 17 September 2012 · 100 views

Oh man so I was up at 4 am this morning. I woke up in a cold sweat from a nightmare. It jolted me awake. I just sat there and sobbed. Finally I pulled myself together and got up and decided I might as well just get up and get ready for the day. So I showered and cleaned up. I went back into my room and got dressed.

Thank God I got dressed first and didn't just put on my robe because after dressing I sat on the floor of my bedroom and watched the news while finishing lotioning my face. After I did that I went to open my pill case to take my meds and I couldn't get it open. I sat there yanking on the top trying to pull it apart and I finally got it. When I did my hand when flying backward into my mouth. I bit straight through my lip and also broke a tooth. The blood was everywhere. I am glad I had my towel so I didn't get any blood on the carpet. I stumbled down the stairs and I was shaking from losing a lot of blood. I couldn't believe that it was bleeding so much and I couldn't get it to stop. So I made it to one of the aide's rooms and she came out quickly and called the ambulance. So I made a 5 am visit to the hospital. They stitched my lip and they called a dentist who fixed my tooth and everything. I was so thankful for the doctors and nurses. They took great care of me.

They gave me some anesthetic which I think was inject right on a nerve or something because I am having some bad jaw pain. Maybe I hit myself harder than I thought. Who knows? It was a straight Me, Myself, and Irene moment. And I am even crazy to go with it. How about that?

So I am spending the night recovering from that. I have received delicious soup and milkshakes though so maybe it was worth it...lol

Whats next? What is next?

God please keep me safe...its becoming more and more clear that I am just a big danger to myself because I am in a severe drought of coordination.


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