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And so it continues...

17 September 2012

Posted by shatteredAli

Oh man so I was up at 4 am this morning. I woke up in a cold sweat from a nightmare. It jolted me awake. I just sat there and sobbed. Finally I pulled myself together and got up and decided I might as well just get up and get ready for the day. So I showered and cleaned up. I went back into my room and got dressed.

Thank God I got dressed first...

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Its been a long time

16 September 2012

Posted by shatteredAli

So its been a week since I posted. I think its been a week. A crazy week.

I can't even keep myself straight right now. My mind is in blur. I have been back to residental treatment for a week now after losing my brother. Oh boy have things gone wrong. I have been a major pain in the ass to my friends. I know that. I really hope they truly...

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Balls to the wall

08 September 2012

Posted by shatteredAli

I had quite a night flying home last night. Our plane was delayed over an hour and I was exhausted. On top of this I had a panic attack at the airport from a suprise. It makes me feel so stupid when this happens. Its irrational and I really hope that God will help me to figure these things out soon. I get so confused with my feelings. I was so...

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No More

06 September 2012

Posted by shatteredAli

I had a friend staying with me for the past couple of nights. It was nice to have her there. I was sad when she had to go this morning. She is the greatest person I know. The more I get to know her the more I realize that she understands me. God brought her to me because He knew we would be great friends. She has been dealing with a lot of things...

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nervous

05 September 2012

Posted by shatteredAli

I am really nervous. I am getting ready to head to my brother's memorial service. I don't want to go. It makes it final. I miss him so bad. I just feel like I can't breath.

I will be headed back to my residental treatment Monday. I can't wait to get back. There is so much I haven't delt with. I need to get better.

Thank you...

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Rundown

03 September 2012

Posted by shatteredAli

Today has been the second day without my brother. I miss him terribly.

I finally slept this afternoon for the first time in a few days. Only a couple of hours but it was nice. I went to dinner with a friend and that was nice. Didn't eat much. Managed to get some soup down. I think I have a cold. Hopefully that will be gone soon.

We also...

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I feel so scrambled

02 September 2012

Posted by shatteredAli

Well yesterday morning my brother passed away.

I just feel lost, alone, and empty. There is such a big void with him gone. It just feels like one thing after another. I am really overwhelmed. I feel in over my head.

My heart hurts.

Thank you all for your prayers.

God please give me strength to get through this.

<3

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Feeling sad

01 September 2012

Posted by shatteredAli

Well my brother is still in critical condition. He is really not getting better. I am getting more and more nervous by the second. I am trying to keep trusting God. Its so hard.

I feel so guilty that he is even here. I know its not my fault but I feel why him? Why can't I take his place? I have lived. I have had a good life and done...

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Exhaustion

30 August 2012

Posted by shatteredAli

Thank you everyone for the continued prayers and thoughts.

So my brother was responding to the antibiotics then he began wheezing. After the wheezing started it just all started going down hill and they decided it was time for a ventilator. So they did a tracheostomy and started the vent. His vitals seemed to improve with the vent. So hopefully...

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Worried

29 August 2012

Posted by shatteredAli

Thank you all for your continued prayers.

I have left my residential treatment facility and I am on the other side of the country...with my brother. He is so sick. They have figured out that he has sepsis on top of the pneumonia. Its life threatening. I am a scared but I am trusting that the God is holding him right now. I just love him dearly....

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