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So I have three years of my life, from six to nine, that is gone. I just have no memory of it. If some one asks me if any one has ever lived with me and my mom I would say no because I completely forgot about my stepdad's existence.
But lately I have been remembering, that I forgot him, if that makes since. In the past few weeks I realized I had no memory of it.
Well I have been making a list of all of my childhood memories that I can remember before and after those ages and little things have been popping up here and there.
Well he was a drug addict, and so was his son and his sons girlfriend. Today I was watching intervention because I <3 that show and then I started getting all of these weird scary butterflies in my stomach. I got really scared and anxious and I was like wtf wtf wtf is wrong. It was everytime they showed this guy smoking meth and his piped filled with smoke, It was making me sick to my stomach. Then all of a sudden his my ex step brother's face just flashed in my head, and then I couldnt breath. I can see him smiling at me and being really close to me in my kitchen. Its like sooo weird. It was the most odd thing ever.
Didnt make much since but I dont know it doesnt make so much since for me to be scared of that. Even now seeing his image in my head makes me uneasy. I dont understand why.
Hopefully these memories will come, I really dont understand why some one would forget another person living with them for three years.
But lately I have been remembering, that I forgot him, if that makes since. In the past few weeks I realized I had no memory of it.
Well I have been making a list of all of my childhood memories that I can remember before and after those ages and little things have been popping up here and there.
Well he was a drug addict, and so was his son and his sons girlfriend. Today I was watching intervention because I <3 that show and then I started getting all of these weird scary butterflies in my stomach. I got really scared and anxious and I was like wtf wtf wtf is wrong. It was everytime they showed this guy smoking meth and his piped filled with smoke, It was making me sick to my stomach. Then all of a sudden his my ex step brother's face just flashed in my head, and then I couldnt breath. I can see him smiling at me and being really close to me in my kitchen. Its like sooo weird. It was the most odd thing ever.
Didnt make much since but I dont know it doesnt make so much since for me to be scared of that. Even now seeing his image in my head makes me uneasy. I dont understand why.
Hopefully these memories will come, I really dont understand why some one would forget another person living with them for three years.
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