Dont want the simple life . . .
I am slso realizing the reason why I stayed with him so long.
Its because I hate my mom I think. I really cant get along with her and so I had to stay with him to escape from her. It's crazy to realize the only reason This stupid relationship got as deep as it did was because I was to afraid to deal with my own shit. So then I just made it worse by stayin with him.
I really dont like her at all though. Shes on my nerves and depends on me way to much. But now that I recognize that, I know that I am handling it much better.
I mean Fu*( I actually recognize my panic attacks now, like before I just seen them as I am upset but now I realize that I aint crazy or over reacting, I am having a panic attack.
I cant even explain how real everything is feeling now. Its as if I have been living in a dream for three and a half years, and now I just woke up.
If you want to know my life, Just listen to Katy Perry "Wide Awake" lol.
But seriously something has got to give, because I am bored with this life already and I got a long way to go!!
Hopefuully I will figure it out soon!!