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24 October 2012
Posted by writer2010  
...I am heartless. I seriously really really HATE/DISLIKE certain family members a lot. Family, it's such a bowl shit word. Your own blood can take advantage of you-including really close ones too. So that man who is supposed to be my father is an abuse drunk and acts like an idiot by trying to tell his ex-wife, my mother, I also have to...
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Not ok

10 October 2012
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I feel more mental or something every day. I just want to cry or scream or hit something so I can let it all out. I hold everything in. I feel guilty. Sometimes, I hate myself and think that death is easier than life. I do not know. I just want to know that I am not at fault for what had happened even if I initiated most of the times. I...
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Meh. Thought I would stop by for a quick post-or try to keep it short.


I keep having these "dreams" of my brother and dad and they are not like 'bad' or anything just random and weird. Woke up this morning from a dream where my brother told me that him and my dad were going to live at my mom's. Also, my mom is going away...
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First off, I hope I do not sound like a selfish b**** because this is what makes me feel worse. Ever since we found out that my aunt has breast cancer and all of her doctors appointment, I have been feeling worse. I am stressed and tired from school like many of you are. I am feeling a lot of discouragement too since I got "slammed" in...
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Why...

22 September 2012
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...does it seem that sexual abuse is "accepted" when it is shown in the media and in real life, people do not take it as seriously. I just finished watching "Mysterious Skins" and for those of you who have seen it, I bawled and bawled until the end of the film when the rape scene had happened. For those of you who have not seen...
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My mother will NEVER listen to me full out. She is making me feel like I am just overreacting and being a drama queen when it comes down to those two male "role models" in my life. Plus, I have been feeling a lot of shame and guilt b/c of my aunt who is going to go through chemo. and a lot of doctors appointments in the upcoming days. I...
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Stumped on what to do

17 September 2012
Posted by writer2010  
Aside from my "brother" who took advantage of me for 6-7 years growing up, I was so THRILLED when he moved out about a year ago; however, he moved in with my father, whom I stopped communicating with as soon as he relapsed and eventually wrote back pretty brutal letters when I told him that I would no longer put up with his b.s.


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So, once again I am home on weekends due to school assignments but I do not mind since it is screenwriting. However, just as my mother was leaving to go to a friend's bday party, she says that "Your brother is coming done to pick up some stuff from his bedroom. Don't say or do anything." I had a gut feeling that something was...
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A Realization

12 September 2012
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Writing helps me vent. I spoke to my writing professor last week and something I had said about my certain people always putting me down eventually led to her saying that she had close ones who did not believe in her as well. Anyway, I guess I am realizing that maybe a lot of writers, especially screenwriters and authors, have been through some...
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Odd...

08 September 2012
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...sibling and father are/were here since brother had to pick up something. I guess he called my mom while I was doing homework and calmly, my mom tells me, "Your brother is coming by to pick up a few things." So, I gathered up all of my belongings from the living room, where she was at too, and went straight to bedroom. I said a quick...
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