First time in a while
Also had that calm experience for some reason at dentist while they gave me a filling on gum. Weird but felt my body just relaxing, not letting the worries trouble me at that exact moment.
Just need to focus on allowing myself that permission to feel and not be ashamed if I cry or get so damn angry and just distraught over this stuff.
Need to see that I didn't die for my so-called fathers and brothers and all this other family b.s. drama. I only lived and wrote more and more each day. Things are not going my way but whose life does but I need to see and believe that God has a bigger and better plan for me.