Finally talked about it
I still find myself getting anxious at times but thinking MOST of it has to do to wanting to get this stuff of of my chest. I think I am going to start seeing T again on a weekly basis since she scheduled me in next week for trauma work. I mean, I do get angry/frustrated/upset/confused WHY do I have to go through this? Not just the nasty parent's divorce, dad's alcoholism, family drama crap but sexually abused by my brother? Both, men who are supposed to protect me/show me what makes a true man had betrayed and belittled and took advantage of me.
I will try. Try to pray for them and MEAN IT. I said a prayer the other night for dad and felt a bit emotional, saying that I HOPE he and my brother get the help they need and can SOMEHOW forgive themselves since I struggle to look myself in the mirror at times.