I feel sad and whatnot again. I have been struggling a bit with anxiety (what it seems due to clammy palms) for days. To be honest, I feel unhappy in general. I just want to focus on writing and finishing up theses stories (like I have been wanting to for years) but school and all this family b.s. [past-now] gets in the way. I think I get really sad and disappointed because my life did not "turn out" the way I thought and hoped it would. I know this is common for everyone to feel but jeez, I seriously and still might get up to just write because writing and the hope to see my work out there in the world made me want to live. Still does; but I have seriously not left my house since school ended which was like 3 weeks ago. Now, I pretty much leave just for my 10-20 min walks. But eh, I do not know if I am depressed (have not lost interest in things I usually do) but I have actually been advised to "cut back" on my daily stuff since my stress and anxiety had got horrible last month. So, been sleeping a lot because I might as well take advantage before school starts in another week. Plus, I just kind of miss the days where I wake up and not worry about anything and just write my heart out. I know that getting older of course is not all happy dandy but still, feel as thought that I need a change. Just do not know what exactly and knowing me, I always think instead of do.