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Call therapists (females) by my house, nobody calls or picks up and even the lines are disconnected. Anyhow, went for a stroll this morning to get out of the house. But got a bit of the nerves so came home after a few minutes. Plus, my kitty woke me up around 6:45am so only had 5 or less hours asleep. But took a nap-few minutes-and now going to have lunch. I just hope that I can beat this stress/worries/and anxiety. I now understand what it is like when many individuals say that they suffer from panic attacks because it is TERRIFYING when there is no control of own system.
Also, too my mother-although I do love her-has been unsupportive about this. I know that it worries her when I am stressed but I feel as though that she still chooses to not do "anything" about it. I feel as though that she just sits back and judges and points the finger so I know this is what is making me more upset and stressed out. I "called" her out too and of course she does-at times-give me the whole lovey dovey but like yesterday, she gets flat out mad. So, her getting mad makes me go to "dark" thoughts like my "old self" but I end up writing poems to "calm down."
I think I am one angry and anxious person. I hope that I can just laugh more since life is too short and fragile. Afraid to look back one day and wonder why and this and that.
Also, too my mother-although I do love her-has been unsupportive about this. I know that it worries her when I am stressed but I feel as though that she still chooses to not do "anything" about it. I feel as though that she just sits back and judges and points the finger so I know this is what is making me more upset and stressed out. I "called" her out too and of course she does-at times-give me the whole lovey dovey but like yesterday, she gets flat out mad. So, her getting mad makes me go to "dark" thoughts like my "old self" but I end up writing poems to "calm down."
I think I am one angry and anxious person. I hope that I can just laugh more since life is too short and fragile. Afraid to look back one day and wonder why and this and that.
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