...sibling and father are/were here since brother had to pick up something. I guess he called my mom while I was doing homework and calmly, my mom tells me, "Your brother is coming by to pick up a few things." So, I gathered up all of my belongings from the living room, where she was at too, and went straight to bedroom. I said a quick prayer and plus school work has me already stressed and mind going so I guess this is the "first" time I had not full out bawl my eyes out when he they both come around. I am just getting tired and annoyed with being so pissed and sad because of them. I do not know if this is a "good" or "bad" thing but I just want to focus on my priorities and they can seriously go be miserable if they are, which most likely they are since they once abused me all of my life, themselves in their lives. They are not bad people, but jeez just because we are blood related does not mean that it is mandatory to befriend or even like them. I sometimes try to pray that somewhere they will not suffer nor hate themselves because if I have a tough time in accepting myself, I wonder how do they even look themselves in the mirror?