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Like many of you, I had my second dream the other night of my abuser. Dream 1 was him here at my mom's house-his old home since he now lives with my dad which explains part of reason why my dad will not "speak" with me-and he was at the computer or something and I am still unsure on how this dream even started but we were arguing in front of my mom and then the next minute, I almost drop the whole "you took advantage of me growing up" but I choked on the words as soon as his eyes widened up because I got scared due to my mom being in the room. Dream 2 was once again, he was here, sitting on one of the living room chairs and my mom's boyfriend was sitting on the couch. Anyway, in dream 2, I guess I walked out into the living room and he was on the phone with my dad-long story to go into about him now-and I just got so angry or disgusted that I flipped him off and told him to tell my father that he was number 1 too in my life. This pissed my mom and shocked her boyfriend.
I don't know this is making me so worried and kind of pissed :/
I just want to move forward especially with this semester looking a lot busier than the previous; but whatever I say even things about my dad, my mom once again gets all defensive like she is sticking up for him-both of them. She really loses it at times when I mention my "brother," basically accusing me of being a liar, etc.
Anyway, I do think I may start telling friends but will not say who and that it is a close relative because all of my high school friends have met my brother and dad. So, I may come out fully to college friends about this and who did it to me.
I don't know this is making me so worried and kind of pissed :/
I just want to move forward especially with this semester looking a lot busier than the previous; but whatever I say even things about my dad, my mom once again gets all defensive like she is sticking up for him-both of them. She really loses it at times when I mention my "brother," basically accusing me of being a liar, etc.
Anyway, I do think I may start telling friends but will not say who and that it is a close relative because all of my high school friends have met my brother and dad. So, I may come out fully to college friends about this and who did it to me.
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