Pandora's Aquarium: Still strange but trying to be relieved - Pandora's Aquarium

So, I overheard my mother's phone conversation with my abuser and wow...once again she was pissed! Sounds like, but could be wrong, that she does not want to speak with him since he is sticking up for my dad. It is strange since I have always been "waiting" for this, for my mother to finally see the true colors, but at the same time, I am trying not to get my hopes up and whatnot. I do not wish for my mom and "brother" to have a bad relationship, but I do believe that eventually what comes around goes around and I think that is what is starting to happen with both my abusers. My mom told me the other day that my dad, who has been causing way too much stress on his side and even my mom's, is worsening his health. Although, I do pray that my dad and brother will be able to somehow get "help" and forgive themselves, sometimes, it is unfortunate to say that it is their own fault for what happens to them such as my dad's bad health and loosing his friends due to his abusive tactics and my brother who still relies on my parents for support and who is still stuck in school when he should be finishing. I try my best to "stay out of it" but in a lot of ways, I am still part of these scenarios. I just hope that one day, I can understand why some of this had happened. Right now, I am not feeling as "mad" or "sad" about it although this will be a wound on me for a while, but I assume that maybe I am stronger than I had thought. I put myself down so much that I make myself believe that I deserve this and that when in all reality, nobody is born to "suffer."