Pandora's Aquarium: Encountered with him the other day - Pandora's Aquarium

Finally back on this since my laptop was being repaired, but the relative who took advantage of me as a child for a few years was there at the 4th of July family event. Not surprised since my mother chooses to believe what she wants and shoves everything under that "carpet." I have to admit although I was a bit upset/angry/sad, I did not get TOO bad like the other times I would be in the same room as him which I guess is good. I got in the same car as him, but I kept telling myself that I was going to family's house to see my FAMILY only because I care about them. Lately, I have been praying that the tears and hatred is just not worth it anymore. Yesterday, I also spoke with a pastor and he seemed a bit shocked when I told him that this had gone on since the time I was 6 until I was about 13 or 14 years old. He said a prayer with me and suggested that I should seek guidance from a Christian group. I felt kind of bummed because he told me too that he has never dealt with someone who is going through this, although, he did say that he is most certain that this is common. It is just not spoken about. Also, I told him about this site a bit and he said that it is a good idea, however, I need to join a group for guidance. I think what I would like from this is to not only heal but be able to live again and know that this is not technically my dirty little secret but his's since he will not be in the same room as me when someone leaves.


Hope you all had a great day and 4th of July.