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Yesterday was another great moment. I got to volunteer for the LA Film Fest and was very fortunate to see the cast of "Magic Mike" and even meet Joe M. for the closing night screening. Does anyone ever feel like this: sometimes when something good or exciting happens, you start to question about whether you deserve this or why did this not happen to someone who is less "screwed up" ?

I want to be a screenwriter and eventually expand out into directing, producing, and acting when I can but writing is my focus right now. I tend to question whenever I have a descent day because I think I have grown so used to being on more eggshells when my alcoholic father and the one who took advantage of me are not necessarily a part of my life anymore. I apologize if I am being a downer, but just wanted to know if anyone gets I guess these "moments" of second-guessing themselves. When I even compare my life with the abusers in them, I want to say that I was always never sticking up for myself and without them, I have been able to put my priorities first and not feel selfish so much because I have freedom to focus on me.


Hope you all have a wonderful day.
 

2 Comments On This Entry

totally there with you, second guessing is apparently my favourite past time :blush: you are definitely not alone there, and i can relate to thinking other people deserve things more than you.

you are amazing though for what you have chosen to do with your life and the dreams you have. i have faith you will achieve them,

its time to put yourself first like you are and your not "screwed up"

good luck with your career

:hi5: :)
Thank you so much survado, you brought a smile on my face. I wish you the best of luck too <3
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