conversation with myself: a chance to change
I cam feel another downward cycle. Therapy of 8 months is finished. I've taken myself off meds as Side effects were making me Ill.
I think my low mood is to do with coming off meds abruptly as well as being ill recently and my others halts family wishing I had cancer and would die ( their words and a long story)
Well I'm feeling pretty scared to leave the house. I don't want company. I'm jumpy and hypervigilent. I'm angry and irritable. I want to be on my own but I'm scared to be on my own. I feel lost and scared.
So I've accepted how I feel. No pretending to be fine!!
I admit it.... I feel like crap!
I've told my boyfriend and my best friend ( of course with the mood I'm in they are useless)
I've got a choice are the messages telling me bad things too strong? Do I need to make myself safe?
No I don't think I'm going to act on any negative thoughts
So what can I do to make myself feel better?
Be kind to myself and put myself first
How you gonna do that huh?
I'm going to....
- Have a bath
- Go home and do some housework
- Stay away from alcohol
- Write a to do list
- Take some anti anxiety medication and get an early night
Emotionally I'm going to...
- Remember this feeling is temporary
- Make a realistic plan
- Take an evening just for me
- Accept the anger and fear and remind myself it will change
It's okay to be 'selfish' if that's what you call it. It's okay to put myself first