glitter pens and iceing sugar
i now have loads of anxiety where i know i have tog et it done and im feeling crappy about it. I really need to have this chat with my mum as i know my pace and she does not determine it.
i am doing well,
- i still find the strength to talk to people i love and laugh with them,
- i still look after the children when i can
- i go to all my doctor and T appointments,
- sometimes i even go out with friends
- i go to town to do errands when i need too.
right now i am learning how to live daily life again
my first step was to learn how too look after myself
- i kept the house clean
- i did my washing
- i unpacked my home
- i decorated and put pictures up so i felt safe
- i kept myself clean
i feel like im now on the second step doing all the things i have listed.
at some point il be able to handle more but right now i need to master this step.
im having days where i dont want to be around people but i am pushing myself too
im having days where i could nap all day but i am persuading myself to get up
im having days where i havent slept for the whole night before but im a kind of routine
im having days where i couldnt care less but i still get up and washed and do the housework
im having days where i feel overwhelmed..... i havent mastered those days yet but i will and when i have il be able to cope with working, studying at uni, hobbies and voluntary work. until then im going to keep learning about myself.
i have done alot of baking in the last few weeks and i have started my healing project to bring out my creativity. im finding this so therapeutic. i feel like a child again but its great ! glitter pens and iceing sugar. what more can i ask for !