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Posted by survadvo  
had a rough day yesterday when i thought today was going to be the rough one !

i feel like my life is on hold ! grrrr i wish i didnt feel like this i wish i could just put it back in that box back on that shelf and let it sit there like i did for nearly 6 years. i know that isnt healthy but erruggghh sometimes i think it was easier.

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Posted by survadvo  
can not wait for thurday to be over but im kind of looking forward to it

the day i face my abuser

the day i see him for the first time in a year and a half,

the day i sit with my family and look at him,

the day i show him that he hasnt won

the day he might look at me

the day i take back some of the power

the day i confront him...
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From: embarrassed

24 June 2012
Posted by survadvo  
Last night I had a fantastic evening raising money for charity but after the event was over some of us decided to go into town for drinks. I'm on medication so shouldn't have been drinking but after a few I felt great so thought what's the harm. I ended up getting quite merry and I had a man grab my bum. I freaked out completely. He...
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im proud

22 June 2012
Posted by survadvo  
ok after my funny mood last night im thinking i should look at the positives of yesterday

i went to 2 places in the town i live in yesterday that i have been avoiding out of fear of seeing my abuser, he is in prison now for what he did to me.

yesterday i got up the courage to go to these places that i was avoiding. i knew i was safe and i told...
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euurrrggghhh

21 June 2012
Posted by survadvo  
feeling very erm how to put it ....... "euurrrggghhh" this evening. I don't feel down but then again I think that's the medication im on...

how do i know when im better if im on meds ? i dont think i want to be on them, i want to be able to feel my moods, i don't want to cheat myself out of healing properly, what if i trick...
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fed up and lost

20 June 2012
Posted by survadvo  
feeling a bit lost this evening,

spoke about alot today during my counselling session. I feel so confused now.

i feel like ive done too much lately and ive made plans for all week. im worried that i have made too many that i wont be able to keep. if i dont keep them i know i will get up set with my self and fustrated .... but i dont want to...
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my safe place :)

19 June 2012
Posted by survadvo  
[i]i went for my first session last week with a specialist therapist and she asked me to choose a safe place, object or person that could ground me when i was finding things too much and my anxiety levels were peaking during therapy. Ive used this alot this week too in every day life and it works for me(along with the visits to pandys and my meds...
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Posted by survadvo  
a few days ago my "partner" told me that i was responsible for the abuse that i endured and that i needed to stop going on about it.

Today i left him.

I feel emotional and down if im honest but i cant forgive him. I dont need people like that in my life.

when we were in the cafe talking today, an incident between us came up from...
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exhausted !

17 June 2012
Posted by survadvo  
Had a good day with my family today but I'm still not .... I don't know .... Me ? I just feel exhausted.
Exhausted with having to lie to younger members of the family about what happened to me even though they ask me questions.
"Why is he in prison"
"How long will he be there"
"Who did he hurt"
"why are...
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Posted by survadvo  
I started a new journey on the 1st of April 2011. A journey which would leave me in the place I am now. On that day I made that phone call to the police and reported what had happened to me. On the 24th of may 2012 he was found guilty. It's been a hard long struggle. I thought that once the court case was over no matter the out come I...
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