So I just wanted to share this because it is on my mind constantly. Since I have started to become "aware" of what happened to me, I developed a vomiting phobia. I still eat 3 times a day and I have an appetite. My restrictions lie with eating out, drinking and freaking out when people get the stomach flu. Im scared that I will get food poisoning from a restaurant so I wont eat meat. I have never been a drinker but if you have read any previous posts you may be aware that I get told that I never "cut loose" and that I distance myself around people that do drink. I never have more than 2 or 3 drinks maybe once a month because I am afraid that I will get too drunk and get sick. I cannot stand hearing people say that they were sick because they got a stomach virus, it makes me want to soak everything in bleach. I am afraid that I will be hit with the sickness.
Whenever I experience a time when I am exposed to it, I feel like my heart is going to beat out of my chest and I have been stabbed with a thousand pins and needles. I have been dealing with this for almost 3 years now and I am absolutely over it.