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I had a moment...

21 November 2012
Posted by MS7355  
As I am sitting on my couch watching a show about a woman fighting cancer, I thought to myself: "If I had cancer, would my boyfriend take care of me?" I seem to be having those moments a lot lately. When my SA happened, my best friend/roommate was in Turkey, I lived 3500 miles away from my parents and I had no friends. I contracted...
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Will I ever stop grieving?

20 October 2012
Posted by MS7355  
I spent 7 years of my life not acknowledging what happened to me. I blamed it on other things and relationships and when I finally came to terms that I was grieving my SA a year ago I feel as if I am never going to stop. I believe that there is so much that ties into all of this but sometimes for no reason I will feel this overwhelming emotional...
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My boyfriend and I just moved into our own place about 2 weeks ago. He had mentioned before the move that he was feeling a bit confined and was "acting out" but assured me that he did want to live together. I have been going through the healing process for about a year now and I would say that Im doing better than I have for a long time....
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My boyfriend and I just moved into our own place about 2 weeks ago. He had mentioned before the move that he was feeling a bit confined and was "acting out" but assured me that he did want to live together. I have been going through the healing process for about a year now and I would say that Im doing better than I have for a long time....
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Yay for phobias

20 June 2012
Posted by MS7355  
So I just wanted to share this because it is on my mind constantly. Since I have started to become "aware" of what happened to me, I developed a vomiting phobia. I still eat 3 times a day and I have an appetite. My restrictions lie with eating out, drinking and freaking out when people get the stomach flu. Im scared that I will get food...
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Yay for phobias

20 June 2012
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So I just wanted to share this because it is on my mind constantly. Since I have started to become "aware" of what happened to me, I developed a vomiting phobia. I still eat 3 times a day and I have an appetite. My restrictions lie with eating out, drinking and freaking out when people get the stomach flu. Im scared that I will get food...
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Unable to participate

09 June 2012
Posted by MS7355  
The people all around me in my life right now are constantly in the state of mind that getting really "messed up" whether by drugs or alcohol is the way they want to live their life. I dont understand them because I dont want to live my life that way. I prefer to be sober, finding enjoyment without a substance even though that has its...
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Feeling lost and alone

03 June 2012
Posted by MS7355  
It's a constant feeling of everyone around me just doesnt understand or want to. I have spent the majority of my life caring for others and being sensitive to the painful times that they have experienced in life but when I turn around and ask for the same, no one is there. I do have people in my life that care for me but when I have a...
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During this process of facing some really hard emotions about what happened to me I am afraid that my boyfriend will get overwhelmed and leave me. I have had a lot of friends back out of being supportive during this time because they said they had "reached their limits" with me.

I cant blame them for feeling like trying to support me...
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I have discovered something beautiful. After waking up every day with anxiety and going to bed with anxiety for almost 2 years now I have a realization that I hope I will hold on to forever. It all started when I was shopping for another therapist and I went to see this woman. I don't remember much from the session other than 5 magical words...
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