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It is amazing to me how a week or a month holds its share of hills and valleys. Surprisingly, sometimes I am caught off guard by how often I am hit by them just through the course of one morning not to mention a day or a week or a month. All it takes is a word or sound or a smell to rock my world. Thing is, it doesn't have to be good or bad. All it has to do is feel different enough to shake me up. So, really it is not all that hard to do.
I am tired of melting every time the scenery changes. That's what I do. How do I stop? It seems like it would be easy. The answers I have heard do, anyway. To me, though, it is far from easy. I am conditioned this way. It was either going to be, melt down or be as hard as nails. I chose to melt down, I guess. Balance would be awesome. To respond with neither would be ideal. Thing is, I don't know how to do that. No wonder mom called me mellow dramatic. Not everything is worth a meltdown, though. There are things that maybe I could learn to blow off, maybe. I don't know. I really don't.
I guess I know what the next two weeks without T is going to be about. Yes, T is going to be out of town for the next two weeks and before you ask, yes, I melted down like a little child terrified that T wasn't coming back. I am determined to get through this with mental status in tact, I think.
I am tired of melting every time the scenery changes. That's what I do. How do I stop? It seems like it would be easy. The answers I have heard do, anyway. To me, though, it is far from easy. I am conditioned this way. It was either going to be, melt down or be as hard as nails. I chose to melt down, I guess. Balance would be awesome. To respond with neither would be ideal. Thing is, I don't know how to do that. No wonder mom called me mellow dramatic. Not everything is worth a meltdown, though. There are things that maybe I could learn to blow off, maybe. I don't know. I really don't.
I guess I know what the next two weeks without T is going to be about. Yes, T is going to be out of town for the next two weeks and before you ask, yes, I melted down like a little child terrified that T wasn't coming back. I am determined to get through this with mental status in tact, I think.
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