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I know a blog is to kinda journal whats up in life. But I am looking at it in the standpoint of marking days these mornons once again do not do their jobs!! I am angery that the world and those in it can be so cruel, so one sided, and so ................... can't say it or I will be swearing till I hit the wall..
I so dislike O county police. For my own protection, which you will understand if you choose to read this, I cannot say the name of the police department.
The jerks were here this weekend due to the fire burning in the field out back. Once again they did not do anything to help the situation at hand even though they know full well what's going on. I seriously hate them!! Idiot hands me a booklet on DV... That's it.. Stupid grrrrrrrrrr!
I should know better. I should have it melted in my brain they are morons! I will never gain help from them as long as I live in this county. As long as 'R' is in office I am scr*wed. I seriously wonder how it is humanly possible that they allow him to stay working. Heck even other county police wonder the same thing.
Awhile back when I was talking to Mimi, ( once the executive director of Sylvia's place.. a shelter in Allegan county) After she and I talked for some time she let me know there are many issues with this county and 'R' the head sheriff. He was well know for have a married couple on his force, and the male was abusing his wife, and they covered it up. They are know for allowing officers to shoot dogs, and then deny it later.. etc.. And this is information that comes from another county police office that had to 'baby sit' mine so that when I could finally get out.. they would do their job.
Thing is even prier to this, I was living on a street that had maybe 10 homes on it. It was a dead end street and pretty much everyone knew everyone. It was in the summer and I love to lay out in the sun. So one day I was in shorts, and just a swim suit top, and one of my neighbors that I had issues with came over and started his crap. Ended up getting R*ape by him. I called the 'O' police and they came out. I was a mess, and the only thing that came of it was the cops telling me that I should not be walking around wearing what I was. It was inappropriate and it cause men to look. He did more than look!!!!!! I don't know, maybe it was just everything built up, but I told this Idiot cop that I should be able to run naked and NO ONE should touch me.. I wasn't that nice when I said it. I called him all sorts of names... I still get extremely mad when I recall this. I told him he was full of sh*t and that I will talk to someone higher up. And I did. I sent out emails to the head office and 'R' himself... Once I started to push the issue, that's when all heck broke lose. For three weeks every flipping night a cop would be at my door. Or they would show up at 3 am and break in, saying they had just cause.. etc. They showed up on day, and I was just totally getting sick of it. I asked the idiot why they were here yet again, and he said that one of my old neighbors had called. I asked which one... Of course he tells me they cannot tell me that but another officer was outside talking to them as well. I didn't believe them. I told him, " FINE, im going out to see." he told me that if I left my home, I would get arrested. Mind you when I am that mad, I have a extremely bad temper. I just looked at the moron and said, " Fine you cannot stop me from getting my mail" Which was at the end of the road. He couldn't either. I grabbed my keys and walked out. Sure enough there was no one out there talking to anyone.. But they night they broke in and shined a light in my kids face was the end of it.. I had totally enough. I knew I could do nothing with our county so I contacted the state police and the head office again, and some other counties, looking for some sort of help with this. Once word got out I was doing that, it made it 5 times worse with my county. But I pushed it anyway...The harassment didn't stop, and the state police tell me all they can do is assign a detective to look into all this. I thought, fine at least its something. Needless to say it was a detective from my own county.. They came over, and pretty much in the short of it, told me that police will back up their own no matter what and that I was wasting my time trying to be heard. I felt so defeated. I was dealing with my own issue with abuse at home that they would not help me with. I remember once also they came out after my husband and I had a really bad fight. Got pounded pretty bad. The cops came out, and I sat in the dinning room waiting to talk to them. The whole damn time they sat and listened to my husband and did not even ask me one question. It was like I wasn't even there. And that was it... that's all that happened. After all this the last time they came out for NO reason but to be jerks, I blew up at them. This cop just looked at me and told me straight to my face to never again call them for help, because help would not come. And that if I kept pushing the issue of them harassing me they will have me arrested.. What the h*ll I thought.
In this time I was still talking to Mimi, and I told her everything... Though it took over 8 months just to get out of my home the first time.. When I did get out Mimi and another counties police officer who worked for the shelter helped me out. There is a form you can fill out to files charges against the police department...We were in the process of doing that when I was at the shelter, and if anyone's been in a shelter you know you only have 6 weeks. The last week I was in the home, my husband and his friends found it. These homes are supposed to be under the radar, and yet...... It was impossible for them to find me... yet they did. I blame it on 'O' county police. Though I have no proof... I have a feeling it was them...
So it's no surprise what happened this weekend.. I just wish I knew of a way to fight back on this, and there just isn't. You cannot win when fighting the police... Defeated is a huge emotion when it comes to that part of my life...
One day I swear if its the last thing I do in this world.. One day someone will listen!!
I so dislike O county police. For my own protection, which you will understand if you choose to read this, I cannot say the name of the police department.
The jerks were here this weekend due to the fire burning in the field out back. Once again they did not do anything to help the situation at hand even though they know full well what's going on. I seriously hate them!! Idiot hands me a booklet on DV... That's it.. Stupid grrrrrrrrrr!
I should know better. I should have it melted in my brain they are morons! I will never gain help from them as long as I live in this county. As long as 'R' is in office I am scr*wed. I seriously wonder how it is humanly possible that they allow him to stay working. Heck even other county police wonder the same thing.
Awhile back when I was talking to Mimi, ( once the executive director of Sylvia's place.. a shelter in Allegan county) After she and I talked for some time she let me know there are many issues with this county and 'R' the head sheriff. He was well know for have a married couple on his force, and the male was abusing his wife, and they covered it up. They are know for allowing officers to shoot dogs, and then deny it later.. etc.. And this is information that comes from another county police office that had to 'baby sit' mine so that when I could finally get out.. they would do their job.
Thing is even prier to this, I was living on a street that had maybe 10 homes on it. It was a dead end street and pretty much everyone knew everyone. It was in the summer and I love to lay out in the sun. So one day I was in shorts, and just a swim suit top, and one of my neighbors that I had issues with came over and started his crap. Ended up getting R*ape by him. I called the 'O' police and they came out. I was a mess, and the only thing that came of it was the cops telling me that I should not be walking around wearing what I was. It was inappropriate and it cause men to look. He did more than look!!!!!! I don't know, maybe it was just everything built up, but I told this Idiot cop that I should be able to run naked and NO ONE should touch me.. I wasn't that nice when I said it. I called him all sorts of names... I still get extremely mad when I recall this. I told him he was full of sh*t and that I will talk to someone higher up. And I did. I sent out emails to the head office and 'R' himself... Once I started to push the issue, that's when all heck broke lose. For three weeks every flipping night a cop would be at my door. Or they would show up at 3 am and break in, saying they had just cause.. etc. They showed up on day, and I was just totally getting sick of it. I asked the idiot why they were here yet again, and he said that one of my old neighbors had called. I asked which one... Of course he tells me they cannot tell me that but another officer was outside talking to them as well. I didn't believe them. I told him, " FINE, im going out to see." he told me that if I left my home, I would get arrested. Mind you when I am that mad, I have a extremely bad temper. I just looked at the moron and said, " Fine you cannot stop me from getting my mail" Which was at the end of the road. He couldn't either. I grabbed my keys and walked out. Sure enough there was no one out there talking to anyone.. But they night they broke in and shined a light in my kids face was the end of it.. I had totally enough. I knew I could do nothing with our county so I contacted the state police and the head office again, and some other counties, looking for some sort of help with this. Once word got out I was doing that, it made it 5 times worse with my county. But I pushed it anyway...The harassment didn't stop, and the state police tell me all they can do is assign a detective to look into all this. I thought, fine at least its something. Needless to say it was a detective from my own county.. They came over, and pretty much in the short of it, told me that police will back up their own no matter what and that I was wasting my time trying to be heard. I felt so defeated. I was dealing with my own issue with abuse at home that they would not help me with. I remember once also they came out after my husband and I had a really bad fight. Got pounded pretty bad. The cops came out, and I sat in the dinning room waiting to talk to them. The whole damn time they sat and listened to my husband and did not even ask me one question. It was like I wasn't even there. And that was it... that's all that happened. After all this the last time they came out for NO reason but to be jerks, I blew up at them. This cop just looked at me and told me straight to my face to never again call them for help, because help would not come. And that if I kept pushing the issue of them harassing me they will have me arrested.. What the h*ll I thought.
In this time I was still talking to Mimi, and I told her everything... Though it took over 8 months just to get out of my home the first time.. When I did get out Mimi and another counties police officer who worked for the shelter helped me out. There is a form you can fill out to files charges against the police department...We were in the process of doing that when I was at the shelter, and if anyone's been in a shelter you know you only have 6 weeks. The last week I was in the home, my husband and his friends found it. These homes are supposed to be under the radar, and yet...... It was impossible for them to find me... yet they did. I blame it on 'O' county police. Though I have no proof... I have a feeling it was them...
So it's no surprise what happened this weekend.. I just wish I knew of a way to fight back on this, and there just isn't. You cannot win when fighting the police... Defeated is a huge emotion when it comes to that part of my life...
One day I swear if its the last thing I do in this world.. One day someone will listen!!
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I personally believe that institutions like schools, churches and yes police departments should mind their P's and Q's cuz society on the whole is fed up with abuser's and institutions that think they are above the law and can do whatever the hell they want. Their days are numbered I hope.
I am truly sorry you are going through all this. Take good care of you first.
Blessings
I agree, but when you live in the boondocks and a small town, it still plays a big role in how these idiots play.
To me I just cannot understand how it is "R" is still running. It blows my mind! I have a feeling here shortly this is going to start all over again...
I don't know if its inner strength... I blame it on being a scorpio.. LOL!