Pretty much ever since I started my therapy.
I'm not blaming the therapy but, it has required to me start to really dig into my brain (so to speak) and remember what happened...
Well, it worked... a little too well. It has completely effected my dreams.
In some dreams, I have to stand there and watch what happened to me... In others, it's like it's happening all over again. I can feel what it felt like, I have the same reaction... I can't do anything to help myself or stop what happened.
I've tried to learn to take control of my dreams but, it never works. I'm always stuck in such fear that I can't help myself at all.
I wish they would go away. It's quite possibly the worst part of dealing with what happened.
I have a lot of strength... But these dreams are making it much harder to cope then it used to be. I hope they go away soon.