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From: Do you believe that you are loveable?

Posted by alwayswondering , 10 March 2013 · 17 views

This is a wonderful post by Riverbird that I want to remember.

Source: Do you believe that you are loveable?


Stand Up

Posted by alwayswondering , 07 January 2013 · 47 views

I wonder how I ever trusted any men, and how I kept trying. I guess I was so desperate, and brushed off the assaults as "not that bad" or that "I deserved it." I do not deserve to be tackled from behind and throw into a fence or hit. That is physical abuse. Why did I not see it that way? Why did I take that? It makes me really angry. I hav...



Posted by alwayswondering , 22 November 2012 · 19 views

Recurring nightmares:

- Travelling with my family and getting lost
- Getting lost in my grandparents' old house; sometimes the house is haunted
- Not knowing the routine before a high school dance routine
- Forgetting to go to softball practice until halfway through the season
- Forgetting to go to history, chemistry, and math until halfway through...


Stop Spiralling

Posted by alwayswondering , 21 October 2012 · 19 views

There is no need to make such a big deal of this.

For one thing, it's her issue, not mine.

There is no need to feel ashamed.

This does not mean she doesn't like me anymore.

I have done nothing wrong.

I should not feel embarrassed.


I am not going to make such a big deal of this.

It's her issue, not mine....


I'm So Tired

Posted by alwayswondering , 02 April 2012 · 19 views

I'm so tired of saying yes to people all the time. To smiling at what they're saying to me. I'm sick of feeling guilty, of feeling obligated, of feeling like if I don't do something for someone, that someone won't like me. Why do I care? Why does everyone have to like me? I'm sick of it. And I'm going to stop spending my days a...

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