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I read, and my heart breaks. I am so filled with compassion when I read of the atrocities and the struggles. I personally know of both the atrocities and the struggles. I know what it's like to be a child and suffer at the hands of a male, which brings me to the reason of my title.
I want to reply but I don't. I want to express my heartfelt sorrow that I have, but I don't. I would like to share my perspective but I don't, because even though I may feel a common ground to some, the fact is I am a male. Much of what I have read is by women who have suffered at the hands of a male. I have not replied for this exact reason.
I digress for a moment. I have replied to a few, but did not express what I would have liked to express.
Anyways I question if maybe I shouldn't be here, being a male. I have read "who belongs here" before I was even considering about becoming a member but I don't see that being relevant to why I don't reply and maybe why I shouldn't be here.
I also know there is a forum for men, but being a survivor because of male predator, well, need I say more?
I guess the point of this is, I don't want to be a trigger, I don't want to offend anyone by just being a male and expressing my heartfelt emotion.
My T said to me that I am here for me and I can't control someones trigger, that maybe I should express myself as I have and put it out there, so here I am.
I am so wanting to delete this as I have with so many other posts that I have written. So I fight the urge as I hit publish....................
I want to reply but I don't. I want to express my heartfelt sorrow that I have, but I don't. I would like to share my perspective but I don't, because even though I may feel a common ground to some, the fact is I am a male. Much of what I have read is by women who have suffered at the hands of a male. I have not replied for this exact reason.
I digress for a moment. I have replied to a few, but did not express what I would have liked to express.
Anyways I question if maybe I shouldn't be here, being a male. I have read "who belongs here" before I was even considering about becoming a member but I don't see that being relevant to why I don't reply and maybe why I shouldn't be here.
I also know there is a forum for men, but being a survivor because of male predator, well, need I say more?
I guess the point of this is, I don't want to be a trigger, I don't want to offend anyone by just being a male and expressing my heartfelt emotion.
My T said to me that I am here for me and I can't control someones trigger, that maybe I should express myself as I have and put it out there, so here I am.
I am so wanting to delete this as I have with so many other posts that I have written. So I fight the urge as I hit publish....................
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we have many male members and i think most of us are used to seeing them around the board and communicating with them. there are plenty of female perpetrators out there too, so we get that, as well. i have issues with males and females. i think we try to see everyone as a person first, rather than their gender. personally i don't find posts by men triggering.
and finally someone is always going to be triggered by something. it could be the slightest detail in a post, a reference to a family member, a religion, the list of potential triggers is really limitless....including occasionally maybe the gender of the poster. we can't stop that from happening any more than we can stop somebody from being triggered by any other detail of what we write. i hope you will try out using your voice here when you're ready and not worry so much about triggering people. i'm sure you have a lot to contribute. it may make you more comfortable to put a trigger warning at the beginning stating you're male? not that i think that would be necessary at all.