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I woke up this morning and dressed, and I had memories of me as a really little girl, maybe 3 or 4, and my sister dressing me up like a doll. I just remember the feeling of her attention. I loved having her attention! I used to follow her around the house constantly. That feeling of being with her is so peaceful and sweet. She used to get impatient with me, and tell me to go away - but I don't think I ever got the feeling she didn't love me.
My memories are opening up like flowers. Like that anais nin quote: "And the day came when the risk to remain tight in a bud was more painful than the risk it took to blossom".
I am in a daze for sure. I have deadlines and things to do - not too many.. but I'm so caught up in the feeling of these memories that keep flooding in. Memories of all kinds. From every age. For so long I couldn't remember any of my childhood, and now it's like walking around in a living museum - pausing here and there and moving on.
I feel a bit self conscious just because I'm so caught up in it. It literally is like a flood. I'm just living in these memories that keep coming back. I feel different ages at different times. Luckily I'm alone all day, so I can just get caught up and not have to talk to anyone.
I looked into my face in the mirror and saw my mother in it, and I didn't hate her - I just saw her.
I feel calm, but it's a bit like living in a fishbowl of images right now.
My memories are opening up like flowers. Like that anais nin quote: "And the day came when the risk to remain tight in a bud was more painful than the risk it took to blossom".
I am in a daze for sure. I have deadlines and things to do - not too many.. but I'm so caught up in the feeling of these memories that keep flooding in. Memories of all kinds. From every age. For so long I couldn't remember any of my childhood, and now it's like walking around in a living museum - pausing here and there and moving on.
I feel a bit self conscious just because I'm so caught up in it. It literally is like a flood. I'm just living in these memories that keep coming back. I feel different ages at different times. Luckily I'm alone all day, so I can just get caught up and not have to talk to anyone.
I looked into my face in the mirror and saw my mother in it, and I didn't hate her - I just saw her.
I feel calm, but it's a bit like living in a fishbowl of images right now.
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