January 31, 2010
I had my frist appointment with a new counsellor today-WHAT A FUCKING SHIT STORM THAT WAS!
I hate when Ts ask you what you need/what would help you...like if I knew that I would be doing it and not sitting in front of you! I also felt like she was judging me hard core. Almost as if she thought it was all in my head and that I'm just a fat lazy fuck and if I got off my ass and did something physical I'd be happier. She said she thinks I should start DBT-it's a group setting, I don't want that at all. BUT of course I can't fucking say no to ANYTHING! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
I'm just so frustrated with life right now--I'm a lost cause.....