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So, it's been awhile...

24 March 2013
Posted by kjw9311  
I finally decided to tell my cousin. She's the closest person to me in my family, and she knew about some of the things going on with me in college. I felt so much better after I told her. I've just been so stressed lately, and every time I remember that my parents don't even know about my PTSD, it makes me feel worse.

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So, after my struggle of letting her talk about the 16th, when I walked in today, she asked if I was ready to talk. I told her everything I remembered from that night, beginning to end...it was so hard...I just sat there shaking the whole time...
I asked her if I had PTSD as well, and she opened a book and we read through the symptoms...she said...
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Just thinking

04 December 2012
Posted by kjw9311  
So my friend, one of 3 people that i've told, mentioned my family christmas party being on the 29th last year...I had my wisdom teeth out before the party, because i couldn't eat anything. The day of my **** was 2 nights before. I remember because i had the surgery on a tuesday, and my **** was saturday night/sunday morning and on that...
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Posted by kjw9311  
All I remember of my dream- I was talking to a guy (who didn't look the least bit like my ***ist) and he was close to me. He kept telling me I had to give him something, and when I said turned to walk away, he grabbed my hand. Then he got even closer, whispered a threat, and pulled a gun on me. The gun was silver, i'm not sure what brand....
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Need someone to talk to

28 November 2012
Posted by kjw9311  
Today, well, has just been a bad day. I accept that. But I'm getting lonely...stressed...really wishing I had someone that at least knows about the r*** to talk about it too. Only 19 days left...I just feel all alone. Everyone keeps asking me if i'm ok...and I always say yes. But I honestly want to tell them that no, i am NOT ok. But idk...
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Panic attack today :(

26 November 2012
Posted by kjw9311  
Overall, I had a really good day. When I was at work though, I heard a song that reminded me of him, and I instantly felt trapped. I got dizzy and I swear I haven't felt like that since I was in college. It took about 5 minutes before I felt fine again, but that really scared me.

Anyways, that's all. I've been reading some of the...
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Posted by kjw9311  
Hi everyone. It's been awhile...I honestly don't know where to start. So much has happened. I'm just, kind of going through a really rough time right now...what with Dec 16th not far away...I've just been sad and, well, down lately. I've been fired from 2 jobs, had to leave one job, and currently have two (that I love).

The...
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Posted by kjw9311  
Hey everyone! I guess I'm kind of at a loss for words...I've been gone for so long. I'm actually at one of my two jobs now. I don't have computer priveldges at home anymore. About a month ago I went to the movie's with my ex's best friend. I had a great time, but my parents weren't happy. I just feel stuck now. I...
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Now my parents know :/

09 February 2012
Posted by kjw9311  
Last night, I don't know what happened to me, but I met my rapist again. And yeah, we had sex, again. But before we did anything we just sat in the car and talked, like real friends do. Since my break up with my ex i haven't had as many friends, he was one of them i trusted...but....yeah. :/ I had been texting one of my girl friends at the...
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Posted by kjw9311  
The title says it all. My rapist texted me and asked about a 3-some. I agreed, but somehow it just turned into me and his cute friend...with the rapist watching us...

I'm not sure what got into me, but I might see this guy again. We like each other and possibly see it going forward.

But-that's not the point of this blog.

The point is...
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