Recently all I do is run away. I run away from arguments, run away from feelings, and run away from London. I travelled all summer, to morocco and South Africa, to get away, to run away. This weekend, I got away to the coast. But I didn't get away from my feelings. I can't get away from them sometimes. Not only am I shutting everyone else out, but I'm shutting out my own feelings and its taking its toll. I'm hurting now, I'm hurting a lot.
I dont want to share, because I don't want people to have to listen. I don't want to force my feelings on anyone else, and I certainly can't deal with them myself, so I'm stuck in this cycle. When will it end? Will the pain ever go? Because I don't know if its worth it. To have to live with this everyday, I just can't.