Nightmare meds to Nightmare Doctors
I know I am stupid I made an attempt, I had hit rock bottom and I acted stupidly. It just seems when you ask for help even the Psychiatric Doctors do not want to help they just turn you away which makes the depression worse. My son is going with me to the doctor to let her know that we have safe guards in place in that he keeps my meds in a locked box and only gives me one day of meds at a time. I am afraid she is going to jump down my throat because one of my kids has to do this. She was really really angry at the attempt because it was unfair to my kids. I know that, but no one is able to see the desperation that it takes to get that low. No one wants to validate my feelings, they just want to fuss or yell at me like I am a two year old.
The closer it gets to my appointment with her the more my anxiety rises. I do not think I can handle one more doctor turning me away.