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Posted by Dawn Aubade , 26 May 2008 · 90 views

I feel like a germ. Invading the school. I walk around, thousands surround me, yet among them all. I am befouled. I am a contaigen. I am unpure. Should I share what is in me, I will infect others. But of course, it isn't me. It is them left in me. Who knows. So many people. Using me. Abusing me. Leaving their mark on me. In me. And because of that. I...



Posted by Dawn Aubade , 13 May 2008 · 81 views

I feel that when people fall
I have to be there for them
to catch them
hold them close
nurture them
grow them
and let them free

But when I fall
no one is there for me
i have to find a way to save myself
i keep doing more and more wrong
i poison the world
and people encourage me to
then when I stumble
they turn
and jeer

i still feel i have to rea...


Dear Judy

Posted by Dawn Aubade , 10 May 2008 · 66 views

Dear Judy,

I know you're dead and all, and I'm sorry for that. But I never got the chance to say to you what I wanted to. Now that you are dead you are held up in school like some sort of mythic heroine, even though everyone knows how mean and nasty you were, they wont say it. Respect for the dead and all that.
To be honest, I feel cheated that y...


Whimsical thoughts

Posted by Dawn Aubade , 21 April 2008 · 69 views

Does anyone else always look for the pot of gold at the bottom of the rainbow?
Still hold thier breath when they drive over a bridge?
Wait for the end of the train to see if there is a little red caboose pushing it up the mountain?
Make sure that you never step on a crack in the footpath - just in case you have to marry a rodent?
Look for a four leaf clov...



Posted by Dawn Aubade , 18 April 2008 · 18 views

It was their secret
you promised to keep.
Locked up tight
never to pass your lips.
A secret so toxic
it devoured you.
Left you a shell
of what you once were.
When I saw you
I saw someone whole
and pure.
Even though you couldn't see it,
I could,
and it wasn't enough.
Because they came back
again and again,
filled you up
with their lies and deceit....


Why go on

Posted by Dawn Aubade , 08 April 2008 · 25 views

O Me! O Life!

O ME O life!...of the questions of these recurring:
Of the endless trains of the faithless-- of cities fill'd with the foolish;....
What good amid these, O me, O life?


That you are here-- that life exists, and identity;
That the powerful play goes on, and you will contribute a verse.

(Dead Poets Society)...



Posted by Dawn Aubade , 14 March 2008 · 19 views

The End

When I was One,
I had just begun.

When I was Two,
I was nearly new.

When I was Three,
I was hardly Me.

When I was Four,
I was not much more.

When I was Five,
I was just alive.

But now I am Six, I'm as clever as clever.
So I think I'll be six now for ever and ever.

- From Now We Are Six
A. A. Milne



Posted by Dawn Aubade , 14 March 2008 · 22 views


I have a house where I go
When there's too many people,
I have a house where I go
Where no one can be;
I have a house where I go,
Where nobody ever says "No";
Where no one says anything- so
There is no one but me.

-from Now We Are Six
A.A. Milne



Posted by Dawn Aubade , 14 March 2008 · 31 views

" Some people feel the rain. Others just get wet. "
- Bob Dylan


Friday :(

Posted by Dawn Aubade , 14 March 2008 · 33 views

Friday is my nice day. I have last period as a non-contact. I love to use that time to color in my plan-book, organise my folders so that they are in "pick up" order for Monday. Make sure my photocopying is all neat and perfectly aligned. All the stupid things that normally during the week I don't really have time to do. However yesterday, was...



Posted by Dawn Aubade , 03 March 2008 · 29 views

I am wierd right now. Feeling wierd.
School is going alright. Having a few troubles with the stupid year 10's who think it is acceptable to flick paper using rubber bands and to chew gum in class.
My year 12's are pretty much OK. Working with some other teachers to subdue Genesis (such a cool name) who is after negative attention. About 2/3 of the...



Posted by Dawn Aubade , 16 February 2008 · 21 views

Even the greatest tree in the forest started off as a tiny seed
As the tree lived it has provided endless shelter and shade for many living things
The tree grew stronger and taller and wiser

We look in the marshes and wonder how anything can live there
but plants adapt
How can a plant grow under a waterfall?
It moves with the ebb and flow of the water


School on Monday

Posted by Dawn Aubade , 02 February 2008 · 37 views

Am I sabotaging my foot in an effort to sabotage school?

Maybe some far corner of my mind thinks that if I can't walk - then I can't go to school

And the problem will be fixed?

To go there tomorrow and have to sit with my peers, who really I don't want to see.

Just leave me in some dark classroom, alone. No one. No students.

And then to...


My first year teaching - grievances

Posted by Dawn Aubade , 24 January 2008 · 34 views

I am having concerns with the support received from my department. As a beginning teacher I believe that it is my right to be able to receive relevant and sound advice and help from other teachers, particularly my HOD and HOF. This year I have not received what I would determine as timely advice from my HOD/HOF. I have found the HOD/HOF very difficult to...


Where are they?

Posted by Dawn Aubade , 20 January 2008 · 30 views

where have you gone
it used to be
that you whispered to me
from the dark corners
of my soul.
Now all I hear
is silence.
I scream
and yell
and not even an echo
to let me know
I have made a mark.
I used to find comfort in you
and safety.
Felt mastery over you.
And now
am left out
in the emptiness
but never finding


Trees that Wood

Posted by Dawn Aubade , 18 January 2008 · 34 views

Once there were three trees on a hill in the woods. They were discussing their hopes and dreams when the first tree said, "Someday I hope to be a treasure chest. I could be filled with gold, silver and precious gems. I could be decorated with intricate carving and everyone would see the beauty."

Then the second tree said, "Someday I will be...



Posted by Dawn Aubade , 16 January 2008 · 27 views

I am such an idiot.
It got to the point where it was nearly two plasters big
so what do I do?
I keep fucking picking and picking
and now it is bigger than two plasters
and I only have three plasters left
that's if I am going to bother covering it tomorrow
maybe I deserve to walk on it
I hope my parents dont see
Surely they must know
but they dont...


Poems form high school

Posted by Dawn Aubade , 14 January 2008 · 33 views

I was looking through some stuff on my computer that was from when I was in 6th and 7th form at high school. I was really wierd then. I know. But I have no recollection of this. At all. There must be an alter somewhere that did these and holds these memories (I wish they would come out because there is some amazing stuff analyzing famous poems and all the...



Posted by Dawn Aubade , 12 January 2008 · 41 views

I am invisible
A nothing
not worth acknowledging

Ever since my mum told my dad I was raped he hasn't seen me
or spoken to me
just off hand remarks
he looks through me
he just sees it as premarital sex
and because of that
i am nothing
he can't even stand to be near me
He walks the long way around me
I am a disease he can't bear to catch
if i...

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