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It's been awhile....

Posted by ButtercupPr , 15 June 2016 · 35 views

Oh my it's been a long time since I've posted or even checked in here. Last I wrote I was really struggling. It has forever been difficult to play the game society has asked me to play. The game where I had to pretend that nothing happened. To pretend that he never laid a hand on me. To hand my children over to a person who terrified me but to prete...


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Letters to my children Part 3

Posted by ButtercupPr , 21 January 2013 · 35 views

This has been the week where I was to write letters to my children then bring them to my therapist. We planned to look them over and decide what I should tell them. Last weekend I wanted them to know everything. Every little detail; the sexual abuse, the emotional abuse, and the barrage of law suits.


When my children left it was a Friday, it was...


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Letters to my children Part 2

Posted by ButtercupPr , 18 January 2013 · 37 views

It's been a few days since I got the papers and a few days since I had the chat with my daughter. The chat where she told me she didn't want to do what wasn't "fair for dad". I had a hard time with that statement because I don't think "fair for mom" has entered her or her brother's minds. But I know that they protect...


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Letters to my children... Part 1

Posted by ButtercupPr , 14 January 2013 · 71 views

My ex-husband has served me with legal papers for the umpteenth time. He doesn't want to pay child support . He has NEVER wanted to pay child support. I realize that this is not an uncommon problem. To be honest... If he would go away... Leave me alone... Leave our children alone... I would be okay. But that's not the case. He wants me t...


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The End is Near

Posted by ButtercupPr , 13 January 2013 · 34 views

I really do give myself credit... I am an AMAZING person.. a fighter, strong, compassionate, loving, moral. I know these things about myself. But a person can only do so much, take so much before they reach a limit. I am at my limit.
I was married for 10 years to an abuser. I was naive and knew little about the ways of the world. We fell in love,...


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Becoming enlightened.....

Posted by ButtercupPr , 06 January 2013 · 77 views

I am in CONSTANT struggle... Who is my ally; who is not my ally? Occasionally I step outside of my comfort zone and reveal a teeny part of myself to test the water. That happened this week.... A meme/photo came up on Facebook. "My rapist doesn't know he's a rapist" read the sign. A beautiful young woman in her 20s held the sign along...


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Becoming enlightened.....

Posted by ButtercupPr , 06 January 2013 · 40 views

I am in CONSTANT struggle... Who is my ally; who is not my ally? Occasionally I step outside of my comfort zone and reveal a teeny part of myself to test the water. That happened this week.... A meme/photo came up on Facebook. "My rapist doesn't know he's a rapist" read the sign. A beautiful young woman in her 20s held the sign along...


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Friendships

Posted by ButtercupPr , 19 December 2012 · 26 views

The blessing in all of my madness is self discovery. The last month or two have been a whirlwind of hurt. I am a mother of 4 amazing children 3 of whom I share with my ex-husband. The younger 2 of the 3 are very involved in extra curricular activities which require a lot of my time. Of course my ex is also involved. For some this wouldn't be an i...


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Well, therapy is fun.

Posted by ButtercupPr , 30 May 2012 · 35 views

As I stated in a previous post I recently sought out a therapist. Things were rough for me emotionally and it seemed like a good idea. Now that I have managed to tuck everything safely back inside I find myself wondering what I was thinking.

Just today she reacquainted me with the story of Demeter and Persephone . I love, love, love the name Persephon...


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They are coming.....

Posted by ButtercupPr , 28 May 2012 · 29 views

The wild and crazy events of the last few months brought me to a breaking point. I was honestly in a place where I was afraid of doing/saying something I would regret. I teach school.... so, in the current climate I was really concerned.

My husband and I were at a breaking point (literally) and I went online in search of a therapist. I screened a bu...






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