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Yesterday I didn't show up for therapy again, I'm not sure if I'm disappointed in myself or if it really wasn't the right thing to be doing at the moment. One thing is for sure, I don't feel good about it. I don't think I was gaining anything out of it other than talking to someone about how stressed I am. At first it was really helpful, I felt a lot of relief but 3 months later nothing was resolved. Also, my therapist was only an intern and her schedule was not flexible AT ALL. It's not an excuse, I know..But if I'm driving nearly an hour out of my way to meet with her once a week it needs to be somewhat convenient. Is therapy supposed to be so stressful? I was under the impression it was to relieve stress and reading more and more stories about therapy it seems like it makes people MORE stressed. I guess there are no answers anywhere. That's what it feel like to me at this point. My boyfriend and job didn't help the situation either, I tried making it clear to everyone I needed to take that time to myself. One hour once a week, for me. Things kept coming up and to everyone else it seemed like something I could skip or cancel last minute for something they needed. Of course I have a hard time saying no...Nothing seems to be working out, I'm so frustrated that I've put myself out there to fix relationships, start therapy, be a good friend/girlfriend/daughter and I feel used up and taken for granted. The therapist was only available 1 day and people around me took it like a joke. What am I supposed to do? Pay someone tons of money that I can't afford just so they can coordinate schedules better? Skip out on work, tell my boyfriend he's being selfish when he tells me he can't do something by himself for a few freaking hours? I tried, I really did. I waited months to get into affordable therapy, struggled over and over to make a schedule work, literally drove for hours to make my appointments on time. Unless I hit the lottery sometime soon I don't see therapy being an option for me. Can't help but feel bitter about this
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