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I would take myself out for dinner
and buy myself gifts
Some years, I would invite a friend
Some years, friends would have a party for me
Some years, it was just me.
After the memory breakthroughs, I added buying cards
and asking people to sign them
1 year I made a birthday collage and gave out cupcakes that I had made
a birthday angel bear
Godiva truffles and cordials ( oh so sweet !)
Addition Elle again (I would shop there with my rapist )
I have accumulated so many points in the last year
that I received a discount on a new Winter Jacket
plus the following FOR FREE !!!!!
a black lounge robe (for after the Body Shop spa )
a winter shawl with a turtle neck
a black top to wear over blouses
and a teal sleeveless fooler top
(the sales clerks have taught me well)
(they oohed and aahed over the Body Shop gift sets)
(ps I would shop at the Body Shop with my rapist)
a hat from Germany (1/2 price)
a shoe care wooden box
the sales clerk agreed that I deserved it as a treat
I am going to an Italian restaurant where the waiter fusses over me
I phoned Mom (p)
I got to hear Dad's (p) voice again
spooky he will be dead for five years next month
Oh, and I celebrate November 1 st as a birthday
It is the day I left my parent's house
and no one in my family will let me forget that I left that day
Thank you to everyone here that posted Birthday Wishes
and for the PM's
a special thank you to Kalley and Mist Swimming
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About my blog
Please note that some of the content here may be triggering.
What I write here is just me being honest with myself. Mostly just venting about things, realisations, and my path through healing.
There will be talk of CSA, SA, R, SI and ED here.