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I am missing old friends and work

31 August 2009

Posted by danusia007 in career and COLLEGE, career and UNIVERSITY, career MY CAREER, REFLECTIONS, support

strange how at certain times of the year

I really miss the comroidorie (spell check please)

from work

My healing circle

06 August 2009

Posted by danusia007 in MY HEALING CIRCLE, MY HEALING CIRCLE sometimes a friend, REFLECTIONS, support

it ebbs and flows

people join

people go

it continues

to change

day by day

person by person

last assault 2008 2000 a long time

13 June 2009

Posted by danusia007 in CLINICAL SERVICES support, MY RAPIST, MY STALKER AND ASSAILANT, REFLECTIONS, support

So about 9 years ago I was assaulted by my rapist

it was suppose to be a special day for me

she and a mutual friend assaulted me

during the community march

and then later my rapist assaulted me

when we were " alone "

my stalker was around however

and in 2008, the two of them show up at a community event

I have written a...

Tags: My Rapist what was that look about ?

And in the days to come

19 March 2009

Posted by danusia007 in MY HEALING CIRCLE, PROFILE, REFLECTIONS

May I be supported

by my healing circle

STRENGTHENED by their LOVE

From within and without,

ENCOURAGED BY THEIR KINDNESS

to be continued

dont forget to breathe !

25 February 2009

Posted by danusia007 in REFLECTIONS

ok breathe !!!!!!!!

Tags: It is little wonder that rape is the least reported crime

agencies and consents

05 February 2009

Posted by danusia007 in REFLECTIONS, CLINICAL SERVICES support, CLINICAL SERVICES housing, CLINICAL SERVICES health serv..., ACTIVIST, support

I would believe that agencies respect the concept of consent

if they actually ensured informed consent

if consent was not consent by deception

if my consent can be withdrawn at anytime

if the proper information was actually exchanged

ie if I give consent to release all and any information, documents, then all my documents were released

if I...

Tags: Emotional Abuse by Counsellors

sleep deprivation vs disociation (sp)

23 January 2009

Posted by danusia007 in MY RAPIST, CLINICAL SERVICES health serv..., cancer and ptsd, MY STALKER AND ASSAILANT, PROFILE, REFLECTIONS

hee hee even my spelling is worse when i am sleep deprived

i will talking with my doctor about this hopefully over the next month

Tags: My stalker and assailant remains free

medical model vs trauma model

07 January 2009

Posted by danusia007 in REFLECTIONS, PROFILE, MY STORY, MY HEALING CIRCLE, CLINICAL SERVICES support, CLINICAL SERVICES housing, CLINICAL SERVICES health serv..., ACTIVIST, support

i would rather have my supports

focus on what happened to me

as opposed to what is wrong with me

unfortunately the focus tends to be on the second

rather than the first

Tags: tributes reflections

it is a sad commentary

20 December 2008

Posted by danusia007 in MY RAPIST, MY STALKER AND ASSAILANT, MY STORY, PROFILE, REFLECTIONS

when i can not safely attend a memorial service for a friend

My rapist's sister

11 December 2008

Posted by danusia007 in CLINICAL SERVICES housing, My Family I salute my brother, My Family MOM the delimna perp and survivor, My Family NEPHEW, My Family SISTER, MY RAPIST, MY STALKER AND ASSAILANT, REFLECTIONS, support

it is strange when you date someone

and you spend time with their family

I enjoyed the time i spent with my rapist's sister

i have written about what it would have been like

if my rapist had met my family

or if my rapist's sister had met my familyy

my rapist never did meet my sister

my rapist's sister stayed at my place

my...

Tags: My Rapist what was that look about ?

birthday wishes

30 October 2008

Posted by danusia007 in CLINICAL SERVICES housing, MY HEALING CIRCLE, REFLECTIONS, MY HEALING CIRCLE sometimes a friend, My HEALING CIRCLE Virtual Parties

Some of the quotes from my birthday cards

Happy B- Day !!!!!

Laughter..... the best medicine........................... coochie coochie coo !!!!!!!!!!!!!

All the best

You are the best !!!!!!!

Invite me to your 100 th birthday...

Tags: Birthdays virtual parties and reflections

I started with a grief group

28 October 2008

Posted by danusia007 in REFLECTIONS, MY STORY, MY HEALING CIRCLE sometimes a friend, cancer and ptsd, support

The first group was ok. I did not binge during the group YAY ! I was able to tell a little about some of the deaths that have happened.

I am looking forward to the next group.

Virtual Birthday Party

21 October 2008

Posted by danusia007 in CLINICAL SERVICES housing, MY HEALING CIRCLE, REFLECTIONS, My HEALING CIRCLE Virtual Parties

So I am blushing a lot this week as various supports sing happy birthday

One gave me a key chain that makes lots of noise (it's a little quacker )

Kelly Clarkson sent Birthday wishes again this year (goofy grin)

My special birthday meal included

a veggie stir fry, raspberries,
and whole wheat coucous salad with salba and peacans
it was...

Tags: Birthdays virtual parties and reflections

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Virtual Birthday Party

16 October 2008

Posted by danusia007 in MY HEALING CIRCLE, REFLECTIONS, MY HEALING CIRCLE sometimes a friend, My HEALING CIRCLE Virtual Parties

The caterers are sending lots of virtual food including for special diets.

The virtual jukebox is full of tunes (I did raid some of the music collection)

and the virtual theater (sp ?) has a wide assortment of films

so add your favourite tune

or slot in your fave movie !!!!

I will be moving in the party supplies over the...

Tags: Birthdays virtual parties and reflections

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Birthday Celebration on hold

14 October 2008

Posted by danusia007 in REFLECTIONS

So I had been planning a rl party and now things are still so hectic

that I am putting it on hold

hmm ? maybe for my other birthday ?

sigh

I am remembering or saw photos of more relatives at parties than I remembered

shudder !!!!!!!!!!!

Tags: Birthdays virtual parties and reflections

what is courage ?

16 September 2008

Posted by danusia007 in PROFILE, MY STORY, cancer and ptsd, REFLECTIONS

My first christmas

she is 11 soon to be 12

My second birthday

she is 13

I am siting on her lap

playing with farm animals

I am 3

She is 15

we are at the funeral for her mother

I am 4

She is 16

she is the bridesmaid for her older sister

I am the flower girl

who will be indulged with ice cream sundaes

I am 6

She is 18

her...

Tags: For Courage

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Start of year 3 at pandys

16 September 2008

Posted by danusia007 in MY HEALING CIRCLE, MY STORY, PROFILE, REFLECTIONS

I joined Pandys after a visit to my hometown

a year later I was again visiting my hometown

and 2 years later I will be visiting my hometown

I am writing this quickly as my time is limited

and I may add more later

Tags: tributes reflections

i am still without internet

16 September 2008

Posted by danusia007 in MY HEALING CIRCLE, MY HEALING CIRCLE sometimes a friend, REFLECTIONS, support

and i miss it

Tags: Internet irritations