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Posted by danusia007   in MY RAPIST, My Family NEPHEW, My Family MOM the delimna perp and survivor, My Family I salute my brother, CLINICAL SERVICES housing, CLINICAL SERVICES health serv..., MY STALKER AND ASSAILANT, MY STORY
mom is in hospital

bro is barely speaking

he did get his birthday present

visits with nephew off and on between Dec 2004 to Oct 2006

a visit with him for his birthday april 2007

i went to his life plan meeting May 1 2007

apartment is full of water damage

and is sloowwlly drying out

i am still getting hang up calls

i am still hiding in...
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Posted by danusia007   in MY RAPIST, MY STALKER AND ASSAILANT
If you have been following my posts and my blogs, you may have some background. I am only in today from a public terminal Any pocket riders for court would be appreciated.

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Posted by danusia007   in career and COLLEGE, MY RAPIST, MY STALKER AND ASSAILANT
TRIGGER WARNINGS


Knees wanting to buckle

Panic attacks

Nightmares of my sister

the stalker and the rapist

Collapsing from lack of food

cuz your stalker has shown up

to look at bulletion boards

at the food service

not to eat

just to read bulletion boards

this agency did try to help me

obtain a peace bond

but the barrier was a...
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Pocket Riders needed

01 February 2007
Posted by danusia007   in MY STORY, MY STALKER AND ASSAILANT, MY RAPIST, My Family SISTER
I keep having run ins with my rapist's friends.

I have added a lot this month in My Voice under do you ever expect to run into your rapist. Her friends keep popping up.

One friend spent from 2000 -2003 being disruptive at one agency, as well at another agency. She was also contacting me at my home and in the community. She had a long...
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Posted by danusia007   in MY RAPIST, MY STALKER AND ASSAILANT
I was at the agency again yesterday

The nausea was there again

The back spasms flared up again

I can not look at the spot where my stalker was

without seeing her there

she has become a phantom member of my group

I have my guard up with both group leaders

My stalker has shown up here before

She followed me to a food service agency

She was...
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Posted by danusia007   in MY STALKER AND ASSAILANT, MY RAPIST, support
Thanks to my pocket riders

I was in my Courage to Heal group. There were flashes of my stalker while in the group. I was really nervous and nauseaus.

I also had to go the legal drop-in clinic in the building where my stalker lives which was nerve wracking. I was able to eat after the meeting with the lawyer.

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Posted by danusia007   in MY RAPIST, MY STALKER AND ASSAILANT
1) I missed my first Courage to Heal Group

while my stalker got to meet everyone in the group

and now knows who they are.

Are they at risk ?

The group no longers feel safe.

I no longer trust the group leader.

The agency no longer feels safe
and I have been going there for years

(my stalker knew that I attend this agency)

2) I...
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Posted by danusia007   in MY RAPIST, MY STALKER AND ASSAILANT, My Family SISTER
Actually. it takes a real coward to bully someone who has experienced a death.

The hang up calls have been really juvenile.

The false allegations are more than gossip,

A smokescreen to cloud and deceive

A distraction from my rapist's assaults

A cover for their own harassessment


they are a criminal offense if they were ever to...
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My Stalker trigger Warnings

22 January 2007
Posted by danusia007   in career and COLLEGE, CLINICAL SERVICES housing, MY RAPIST, MY STALKER AND ASSAILANT, career and UNIVERSITY
My stalker first came into my life
at an agency that claimed
that they were helpng abused women
get on with their life
This agency later lost their funding
there was the usual donation room
for clothes
some computers
some food services where I volunteered
so did my stalker
a group for csa
where we were given
an overwhelming amount of reading...
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Secondary Woundings ongoing

19 January 2007
Posted by danusia007   in CLINICAL SERVICES support, CLINICAL SERVICES housing, CLINICAL SERVICES health serv..., career and COLLEGE, My Family SISTER, MY RAPIST, MY STALKER AND ASSAILANT
My sister died and I gave a speech in public
I wanted support
and got secondary wounding instead
people in my groups
harassed me
in the community
and with hang up calls
and blocking my access to services
while I was in the shocked state afterwards
my T took extra money from me
her book keeping was questionable
cuz I discovered the difference...
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Tags: Sister She tried to charge her perps

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problems with internet

15 January 2007
Posted by danusia007   in MY RAPIST, MY STALKER AND ASSAILANT, MY HEALING CIRCLE sometimes a friend
one laptop that may be in need of repair problems with internet and other factors prevented me from accessing Pandy's I even tried logging on through a phone browser lol no Pandy's since Jan 7th

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Posted by danusia007   in MY STALKER AND ASSAILANT, MY RAPIST, My Family SISTER, CLINICAL SERVICES housing, career and UNIVERSITY, career and COLLEGE
I originally wrote this on my first Pandy birthday Oct 21 2006

My rapist was a survivor of CSA

My rapist wrote about rape in high school

I never did see that essay

I did get told that she was questioned
by her principal

My rapist was in my support group
It was a mixture of clients and counsellors

before the rapes

My rapist had visited my...
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About my blog

This is basically my space to spill out everything I'm thinking and feeling.

Please note that some of the content here may be triggering.

What I write here is just me being honest with myself. Mostly just venting about things, realisations, and my path through healing.

There will be talk of CSA, SA, R, SI and ED here.

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