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A thumb nail sketch

30 September 2009
Posted by danusia007   in MY HEALING CIRCLE My Music, MY HEALING CIRCLE My Movies, MY HEALING CIRCLE my books, My Family SISTER, My Family OLDER BROTHER Perp and Victim, My Family NEPHEW, My Family MOM the delimna perp and survivor, My Family I salute my brother, career and UNIVERSITY, career and COLLEGE, ACTIVIST, PROFILE
I am a survivor


I am an university graduate


I continue to attend college and university

through a self directed study program

Most of my family is dead

My beloved baby brother died in 2010

My Mom is alive



I have a nephew

he was my sister's son


I really enjoy music

I really enjoy books

I really enjoy movies

I write poetry

I...
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Pandy's Anniversary Sept 16 th

12 September 2009
Posted by danusia007   in PROFILE, REFLECTIONS
I am reflecting upon the past couple of years

and the year ahead














started september 12 2009

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i really like this quote

19 March 2009
Posted by danusia007   in MY RAPIST, MY STALKER AND ASSAILANT, PROFILE
which is why i gave a whole section of my blog to it

Tags: It is little wonder that rape is the least reported crime

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And in the days to come

19 March 2009
Posted by danusia007   in MY HEALING CIRCLE, PROFILE, REFLECTIONS
May I be supported

by my healing circle

STRENGTHENED by their LOVE

From within and without,

ENCOURAGED BY THEIR KINDNESS


to be continued

Tags: Please share my grief a healing circle

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2000 th post !

18 March 2009
Posted by danusia007   in PROFILE
:yay:

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A thought to ponder

06 February 2009
Posted by danusia007   in MY STALKER AND ASSAILANT, MY RAPIST, career and UNIVERSITY, career and COLLEGE, ACTIVIST, PROFILE
it is little wonder that rape is one of the least-reported crimes

perhaps it is the only crime in which the victim becomes the accused


and in reality,

it is she who must prove

her good reputation,


her mental soundness


and her impeccable propriety



Freda Adler

Tags: It is little wonder that rape is the least reported crime

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Posted by danusia007   in MY RAPIST, CLINICAL SERVICES health serv..., cancer and ptsd, MY STALKER AND ASSAILANT, PROFILE, REFLECTIONS
hee hee even my spelling is worse when i am sleep deprived

i will talking with my doctor about this hopefully over the next month

Tags: My stalker and assailant remains free

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Posted by danusia007   in REFLECTIONS, PROFILE, MY STORY, MY HEALING CIRCLE, CLINICAL SERVICES support, CLINICAL SERVICES housing, CLINICAL SERVICES health serv..., ACTIVIST, support
i would rather have my supports


focus on what happened to me


as opposed to what is wrong with me


unfortunately the focus tends to be on the second


rather than the first

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it is a sad commentary

20 December 2008
Posted by danusia007   in MY RAPIST, MY STALKER AND ASSAILANT, MY STORY, PROFILE, REFLECTIONS
when i can not safely attend a memorial service for a friend

Tags: Please share my grief a healing circle

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what is courage ?

16 September 2008
Posted by danusia007   in PROFILE, MY STORY, cancer and ptsd, REFLECTIONS
My first christmas

she is 11 soon to be 12

My second birthday

she is 13

I am siting on her lap

playing with farm animals

I am 3

She is 15

we are at the funeral for her mother


I am 4

She is 16


she is the bridesmaid for her older sister


I am the flower girl

who will be indulged with ice cream sundaes


I am 6

She is 18


her...
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Tags: For Courage

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Start of year 3 at pandys

16 September 2008
Posted by danusia007   in MY HEALING CIRCLE, MY STORY, PROFILE, REFLECTIONS
I joined Pandys after a visit to my hometown

a year later I was again visiting my hometown

and 2 years later I will be visiting my hometown

I am writing this quickly as my time is limited


and I may add more later

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500 posts in My Voice !

17 October 2007
Posted by danusia007   in MY HEALING CIRCLE, My HEALING CIRCLE Virtual Parties, MY STORY, PROFILE, REFLECTIONS, support
Wow !!!!



to be continued

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Posted by danusia007   in CLINICAL SERVICES health serv..., CLINICAL SERVICES housing, CLINICAL SERVICES support, MY STORY, PROFILE, REFLECTIONS, support
an observation made by my t today

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Posted by danusia007   in CLINICAL SERVICES health serv..., CLINICAL SERVICES housing, CLINICAL SERVICES support, MY RAPIST, MY STALKER AND ASSAILANT, MY STORY, PROFILE, REFLECTIONS, support
I continue to be perplexed

by the concept

that "my adult " is to heal

my childhood sexual assaults

as an adult would be traumatized by these assaults

and would experience ptsd;


and paradoxally some of my adult sexual assaults


are for lack of a better term

"less" traumatic

according to the criminal code


any comments...
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Posted by danusia007   in career MY CAREER, CLINICAL SERVICES health serv..., CLINICAL SERVICES housing, CLINICAL SERVICES support, My Family I salute my brother, My Family MOM the delimna perp and survivor, My Family NEPHEW, My Family OLDER BROTHER Perp and Victim, My Family SISTER, MY HEALING CIRCLE, MY STORY, PROFILE, REFLECTIONS, support
If coping is not the healing

then I am still coping

with a lot of after affects

a permanent disability

where the professional agenda is about my coping

the courage to heal however includes coping as part of taking stock

the flooding of memories seems to be impairs my cognitive skills

and my ability to function

the professional denial seems...
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I am thankful for.....

02 October 2007
Posted by danusia007   in CLINICAL SERVICES health serv..., CLINICAL SERVICES housing, My Family I salute my brother, My Family MOM the delimna perp and survivor, My Family NEPHEW, MY HEALING CIRCLE, MY HEALING CIRCLE my books, MY HEALING CIRCLE My Movies, MY HEALING CIRCLE My Music, MY HEALING CIRCLE sometimes a friend, My HEALING CIRCLE Virtual Parties, MY STORY, PROFILE, REFLECTIONS
that I found Mom alive in a hospital

that my nephew will be warm this winter

that I found some Christmas presents for my brother

and my nephew now knows a little more about his uncle


that my chiro interns are so supportive


that there are trees outside my bedroom window


that I have lots of interests

that my T actively listens (it is a...
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Posted by danusia007   in My Family I salute my brother, My Family MOM the delimna perp and survivor, My Family NEPHEW, MY HEALING CIRCLE My Movies, MY STORY, PROFILE
I visited my hometown

so that I could drop off Christmas presents

for my brother and nephew

(am I ever early !!!!!!!!!)


brother will be getting 3 hockey plaques

( they will probably stay with nephew)

and a dvd of one of his favourite bands

nephew got a winter jacket

winters are bitterly cold in my...
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Tags: Family drama and dynamics

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Sept 16 one year at pandys

16 September 2007
Posted by danusia007   in odds and ends, PROFILE, REFLECTIONS, support
and as proof of my word processing

see the entries below

in tributes and reflections

sometimes my drafts will publish

on the day I click publish

and other times

I get database error message

Posted Image :o ...
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Posted by danusia007   in CLINICAL SERVICES health serv..., CLINICAL SERVICES housing, CLINICAL SERVICES support, MY RAPIST, MY STALKER AND ASSAILANT, MY STORY, PROFILE, REFLECTIONS, support
One feature that survivors have in common

with war vets is post traumatic stress

there are many other parallels

My rape drawings from my grade school years

include women being raped on battlefields


Today I am thinking whether

friendly fire would apply

the incoming from someone

who you know and trust

I may write more later

Tags: My Rapist what was that look about ?

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death of an uncle

08 September 2007
Posted by danusia007   in cancer and ptsd, MY HEALING CIRCLE, MY STORY, PROFILE, support
4 years of cancer

told in my only letter from mom(p)

told 2 years later

after his death

no one in the family

contacted me


memories of him

from age 6 on


he came to my parent's house

every Christmas Eve

Tags: Please share my grief a healing circle

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About my blog

This is basically my space to spill out everything I'm thinking and feeling.

Please note that some of the content here may be triggering.

What I write here is just me being honest with myself. Mostly just venting about things, realisations, and my path through healing.

There will be talk of CSA, SA, R, SI and ED here.

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