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August 20 2007

20 August 2007
Posted by danusia007   in career MY CAREER, CLINICAL SERVICES health serv..., CLINICAL SERVICES housing, CLINICAL SERVICES support, My Family I salute my brother, My Family MOM the delimna perp and survivor, My Family NEPHEW, My Family OLDER BROTHER Perp and Victim, My Family SISTER, MY HEALING CIRCLE, MY HEALING CIRCLE my books, MY HEALING CIRCLE My Movies, MY HEALING CIRCLE My Music, MY HEALING CIRCLE sometimes a friend, My HEALING CIRCLE Virtual Parties, MY RAPIST, MY STALKER AND ASSAILANT, MY STORY, please forgive me, PROFILE, REFLECTIONS
Yesterday was sunny and today is so cold and overcast. I stayed in bed alot yesterday, did a little cleaning.

Today, I am trying to do laundry, feels like the first time in at least 4 months, since my worker's death.


I am feeling really stressed, I really need a vacation ! I went for a walk down to the stores... it always feel

like a...
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Tags: My stalker and assailant remains free

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Books about brothers

05 August 2007
Posted by danusia007   in My Family I salute my brother, My Family OLDER BROTHER Perp and Victim
to be continued

Tags: Books can be best friends as well

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Posted by danusia007   in My Family I salute my brother, My Family MOM the delimna perp and survivor, MY RAPIST, MY STALKER AND ASSAILANT, My Family NEPHEW, My Family OLDER BROTHER Perp and Victim, My Family SISTER, support
I spoke with mom earlier.

I spoke with my aunt on July 31

I spoke with my nephew on July 30.

I spoke with my brother last on his birthday in March.

It does feel like the whole family is torn apart.


With each of us isolated from the other.


My fears from age 17 have come true in some way...

Older brother dead

Baby sister dead


Dad...
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Tags: Family drama and dynamics

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yet to be titled

22 July 2007
Posted by danusia007   in My Family MOM the delimna perp and survivor, My Family OLDER BROTHER Perp and Victim
July 22 2007



Dad

You gave up the rights of a father the first time you abused me

Mom

You gave up the rights of a mother the first time you abused me


Bro

You gave up the rights of a brother the first time you abused me



to be continued

Tags: tributes reflections

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Posted by danusia007   in PROFILE, MY STORY, My Family SISTER, My Family OLDER BROTHER Perp and Victim, My Family NEPHEW, My Family MOM the delimna perp and survivor, My Family I salute my brother
REMINDER OF TRIGGER WARNINGS

this is still in progress ...

My birth Dad's dad takes mom to hospital because Dad is unavailable

My Big brother's first birthday I am 1 month old

My first christmas I am age 2 months I am holding a toy doll as my mom holds me.


I am in photo's for cousin's birth I am age 3 months


My family...
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Tags: My Story

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MY BABY SISTER

15 July 2007
Posted by danusia007   in My Family I salute my brother, My Family MOM the delimna perp and survivor, My Family NEPHEW, My Family OLDER BROTHER Perp and Victim, My Family SISTER, MY STORY, please forgive me, REFLECTIONS
She was born at home

I wrote a story about her birth in grade 8

I am not in the photos of her homecoming from the hospital

She is in the photo for big brother's 5th birthday she is less tha a month old

She is in a Christmas photo; she is less than 2 months old; mom is holding her and one of my toy dolls


She is in the photos for baby...
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Tags: Sister She tried to charge her perps

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Death of a perp

04 July 2007
Posted by danusia007   in CLINICAL SERVICES health serv..., CLINICAL SERVICES housing, CLINICAL SERVICES support, My Family MOM the delimna perp and survivor, My Family OLDER BROTHER Perp and Victim, MY STORY, support
TRIGGER WARNINGS


this is still in progress

mom's oldest brother


special relationship with big brother


aunt's son left alone with him and that cousin is doing a lot of acting out

all my aunts were abused by him

why leave him alone with children ?

he had a say in my family

mom would often listen to him instead of Dad

two of his...
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Tags: Please share my grief a healing circle

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Posted by danusia007   in CLINICAL SERVICES health serv..., CLINICAL SERVICES housing, My Family OLDER BROTHER Perp and Victim, MY HEALING CIRCLE, REFLECTIONS
So in 2005, there was yet another heatwave,

and the air conditioners in my building stopped working.

Landlords are not required by law to provide air conditioning even for medical reasons it seems.

The air conditioning units were removed, leaving a huge gap in the wall.

I asked for screening and was told to just tape up some...
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Tags: Friend she needs hope and help

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Brothers

08 June 2007
Posted by danusia007   in My Family OLDER BROTHER Perp and Victim, My Family I salute my brother
comments about brothers



i find very few books about brothers


i find even less books about brothers and sisters


just a thought

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Posted by danusia007   in My Family I salute my brother, My Family OLDER BROTHER Perp and Victim
Major trigger warnings


an entry in progress


My older brother


age 17 as leaving my parent's home


WHAT ABOUT THE BOYS ???????

My older brother was 11 months older than me

I had a photo of the two of us together at my 2nd birthday

A friend I trusted the photo with, mailed it back and it was lost in the mail

My mom gave me photos of...
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Posted by danusia007   in My Family I salute my brother, My Family OLDER BROTHER Perp and Victim, My Family SISTER
We know each other

as we always were

We know each other's hearts

We share private family jokes.

We remember Family feuds and secrets,

family griefs and joys.


We live outside the touch of time.


Clara Ortega

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she did not survive

19 May 2007
Posted by danusia007   in My Family I salute my brother, My Family OLDER BROTHER Perp and Victim, My Family SISTER
to be continued

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Posted by danusia007   in My Family I salute my brother, My Family MOM the delimna perp and survivor, MY HEALING CIRCLE, MY STORY, My Family OLDER BROTHER Perp and Victim, My Family SISTER, MY HEALING CIRCLE sometimes a friend
unresolved grief major trigger warnings






my mom's mom age 3 I named her as a victim of violence in 2001

aunt on dad's side age 4 breast cancer triggerered 1991

my dad's mom age 7 she should be named as a victim of violence

my godmother age 11 - 12 cancer

my dad's dad age 13 ??? PERP

my older brother age 21 self...
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Posted by danusia007   in My Family I salute my brother, My Family OLDER BROTHER Perp and Victim, My Family SISTER
You're just like your sister !

and we were at the same grade school

some of the same teachers


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She is your witness,

06 May 2007
Posted by danusia007   in My Family I salute my brother, My Family OLDER BROTHER Perp and Victim, My Family SISTER
who sees you at your worst


and best,

and loves you anyway.


Barbara Alpert

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Posted by danusia007   in My Family I salute my brother, My Family OLDER BROTHER Perp and Victim, My Family SISTER
there's quibbling


Selma Raskin

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A sister is

06 May 2007
Posted by danusia007   in My Family I salute my brother, My Family OLDER BROTHER Perp and Victim, My Family SISTER
A sister is

a little bit

of childhood

that can

never be lost


:banana:

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Posted by danusia007   in MY RAPIST, My Family SISTER, My Family OLDER BROTHER Perp and Victim, My Family MOM the delimna perp and survivor, My Family I salute my brother, MY STALKER AND ASSAILANT, please forgive me
May 6 - Dec 6 National Day of Rembrance for Violence against Women

:candle:

My Sister died in 2001.

She was on life support.

I did not get to say good bye :down:

She was already off life support

by the time I came home

and found a police officer's card

under my door.


She would had been severely disabled

If they had kept her on...
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A Book for Sibling Abuse

26 November 2006
Posted by danusia007   in My Family I salute my brother, My Family OLDER BROTHER Perp and Victim, My Family SISTER, MY HEALING CIRCLE my books
ISBN 0-669-25006-6
LCCCN 90-21845

Perilous Rivalry When Siblings become Abusive

CRIMES

Vernon R Wiehe Ph d University of Kentucky College of Social Work Lexington 1991


a google search of the title will provide resources

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