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Posted by danusia007   in REFLECTIONS, MY STORY, MY STALKER AND ASSAILANT, MY RAPIST, MY HEALING CIRCLE sometimes a friend, MY HEALING CIRCLE, My Family SISTER, cancer and ptsd, support, ACTIVIST
at some point I may list all of her community work

today I was crying


about remembering a speech she gave for her friend


after her friend's death,


she gave her friend a voice.


about remembering how she gave me the opportunity

to speak about my sister

she gave my sister a voice.

about remembering how for years

she helped give a...
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Visit with Brother

01 April 2008
Posted by danusia007   in My Family I salute my brother, cancer and ptsd, MY HEALING CIRCLE sometimes a friend
I am hoping to see my brother soon.


This will be the first time that I have seen him


since that hectic weekend

of transferring him from one hospital to another hospital


I am extremely anxious about the visit.


My wishful thinking includes

the hope that he can also see my nephew.


He has not seen him in years !!!!!

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Another quick update

19 March 2008
Posted by danusia007   in cancer and ptsd, My Family I salute my brother, My Family MOM the delimna perp and survivor, My Family NEPHEW, MY STALKER AND ASSAILANT, MY STORY
Mom did it again, my oldest cousin died, I was told after the funeral ...

I have not spoken to mom since then.

Brother phoned me looking for mom !!!!!, This is the first time he ever phoned me.

I arranged a phone call for his birthday with his worker.....

we were on the phone for 30 minutes, and talk for 10 minutes out of...
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death of an aunt

11 September 2007
Posted by danusia007   in support, REFLECTIONS, MY STORY, My Family MOM the delimna perp and survivor, My Family I salute my brother, CLINICAL SERVICES health serv..., cancer and ptsd
before tribunal



she was my mother's friend for most of her life


she was severely abused by her dad (my dad was her brother)


she told me that my dad would protect her from their dad


she had a lot of denial of her own abuse experience (edit with different word )


she is survived by most of her children and grandchildren



she was one...
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death of an uncle

08 September 2007
Posted by danusia007   in cancer and ptsd, MY HEALING CIRCLE, MY STORY, PROFILE, support
4 years of cancer

told in my only letter from mom(p)

told 2 years later

after his death

no one in the family

contacted me


memories of him

from age 6 on


he came to my parent's house

every Christmas Eve

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Posted by danusia007   in cancer and ptsd
So much so that most of my workers barely acknowledge it.

So much so that I barely acknowledge it

I am sure now that it impacts on my sleep and my ED

I am also sure it is one of many factors that keeps the ptsd

in a heightened state as well.

Tags: Brother surviving cancer

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death of a friend

23 July 2007
Posted by danusia007   in MY RAPIST, My Family I salute my brother, career and UNIVERSITY, cancer and ptsd, MY STORY
A year ago

I came back from

transferring

my baby brother

to another hospital

and after waiting

48 hrs

a friend told me

that a friend had died

and the funeral was the next day

she had taken crisis calls from me

and waited until I was back

before telling me

I was in a strange city

and telling me then

while I was dealing...
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Tags: Friend she needs hope and help

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death of a worker

04 July 2007
Posted by danusia007   in cancer and ptsd, career and COLLEGE, My Family SISTER, MY HEALING CIRCLE, MY HEALING CIRCLE My Music, MY HEALING CIRCLE sometimes a friend, MY RAPIST, MY STALKER AND ASSAILANT, MY STORY
she was a survivor of a residential school

she wrote a children's book about her experience

she was already terminally ill when I met her

she taught me about traditions from my heritage

her plans to help me ended when her cancer spread

she did introduce me to the staff at another centre

she encouraged my drumming


she was unable to...
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death of a colleague

04 July 2007
Posted by danusia007   in cancer and ptsd, CLINICAL SERVICES support, My Family SISTER
I spent her last summer

working with her in a community garden

she died from cancer

Her death brought up memories of my grandmother

I was able to write an eulogy for her

her illness bought up memories

of my grandmother who died when I was 7

the t of the day did not even document either event

she spent one session each with me about each...
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death of bf's dad

04 July 2007
Posted by danusia007   in cancer and ptsd, career MY CAREER, CLINICAL SERVICES health serv..., CLINICAL SERVICES housing, CLINICAL SERVICES support, support
I could not go to his funeral

I was flooding in abuse memories from ages 3 to 4 and age 8

and I was searching for stable counselling

bf starts affair with a co - worker

that he hid for over 2 years

a mutual friend told me

bf's dad :

was my emergency contact for work

was a reference on my resume

helped me out

with housing problems...
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This is basically my space to spill out everything I'm thinking and feeling.

Please note that some of the content here may be triggering.

What I write here is just me being honest with myself. Mostly just venting about things, realisations, and my path through healing.

There will be talk of CSA, SA, R, SI and ED here.

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