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Posted by danusia007   in CLINICAL SERVICES health serv..., CLINICAL SERVICES housing, CLINICAL SERVICES support, My Family I salute my brother, MY STORY, REFLECTIONS, support
how many mistakes can happen in a week ??




misadventures glalore !!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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Holiday shopping

23 December 2010
Posted by danusia007   in My Family I salute my brother, MY HEALING CIRCLE, MY HEALING CIRCLE my books, MY HEALING CIRCLE sometimes a friend, My HEALING CIRCLE Virtual Parties
sugar plums for the first time ever

christmas memory book

a christmas tradition book

a believe in christmas book

a santa claus snow globe (block ?)


sketching, drawing and painting supplies

a fun kit

wooden carvings to paint

a travel journel

plus 2 more journels

a couple other books


it is a family tradition to give books at...
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Tags: virtual party

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Posted by danusia007   in My HEALING CIRCLE Virtual Parties, MY HEALING CIRCLE sometimes a friend, MY HEALING CIRCLE, My Family SISTER, My Family NEPHEW, My Family MOM the delimna perp and survivor, My Family I salute my brother
for times with friends


and yet a heavy heart

Tags: first christmas without brother

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Posted by danusia007   in career and UNIVERSITY, My Family I salute my brother, My Family MOM the delimna perp and survivor, My Family NEPHEW, My Family SISTER, MY HEALING CIRCLE sometimes a friend, MY RAPIST, MY STALKER AND ASSAILANT, MY STORY, please forgive me, PROFILE, REFLECTIONS, support
I believe that the assault two years ago was premeditated. I believe that they were waiting for me to be alone.

There is now an alarm post for security near where I was assaulted so no one will be isolated like i was.

I still have flashbacks about the assault


I am too sick these days to do much.


My nephew had to have surgery today so I am...
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Tags: I will never be the same

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my hometown reaction

07 May 2010
Posted by danusia007   in My Family I salute my brother, My Family MOM the delimna perp and survivor, My Family NEPHEW, My Family SISTER
this will be my first visit since my brother's death


and it is anni for sis


emotions are riding high


my friends have wished me good luck


and i see my t on tuesday

Tags: Family drama and dynamics

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Posted by danusia007   in My Family I salute my brother, My Family MOM the delimna perp and survivor, My Family NEPHEW, My Family SISTER
i am extremely anxious


last year a missed photo of my brother

my final visit with him

we talked briefly on the phone over the xmas holidays


now mom and nephew


i am trying to be outwardly calm



but I can feel the anxiety


coming more and more to the surface



i will see my t afterwards

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Posted by danusia007   in support, REFLECTIONS, please forgive me, MY STORY, MY HEALING CIRCLE sometimes a friend, My Family SISTER, My Family OLDER BROTHER Perp and Victim, My Family NEPHEW, My Family MOM the delimna perp and survivor, My Family I salute my brother, CLINICAL SERVICES support, CLINICAL SERVICES housing, CLINICAL SERVICES health serv..., career and COLLEGE
extreme trigger warnings

this has been edited


i was hoping to post this earlier

circumstances prevented me from doing so

Dec 6th is for naming and remembering

I have chosen Dec 6th

to be my memorial day

for my sister.


I have also chosen

this location

to be her gravesite


My sister was born in my parents house


I have been told

that...
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Tags: extreme trigger warnings

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more words of sympathy

18 March 2010
Posted by danusia007   in cancer and ptsd, My Family I salute my brother
all of us here are thinking about you

as you mourn the loss of your brother

our thoughts, and prayers are with you

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Posted by danusia007   in My Family I salute my brother, MY HEALING CIRCLE sometimes a friend
Hell is for children

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Posted by danusia007   in My Family I salute my brother, cancer and ptsd, MY HEALING CIRCLE sometimes a friend
Collector's edition


LAUGHING OUT LOUD



a comedy club 2008


350 minutes of comedians

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Posted by danusia007   in cancer and ptsd, My Family I salute my brother
my goodness, what an impossible loss


my brother and I are quite close


and I am feeling the depth of


how you may be coping


know that we are here


if you need support



from the university

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Posted by danusia007   in My Family I salute my brother
and the honouring of his life

although circumstances unfortunately prevent me

from attending his service in person

please know that i am there in spirit

i send condolences to my hometown

from the grief groups,

my government representatives

both universities, colleges

the cancer society, the native center

my friends and their families


I...
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I run for life

10 March 2010
Posted by danusia007   in cancer and ptsd, My Family I salute my brother, MY HEALING CIRCLE
I have listened to this song throughout my membership

I had brought it because so many people in my life

were fighting cancer


This week, my brother joined my healing circle

and my memorial wall :tear: :( :( :(

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Posted by danusia007   in MY HEALING CIRCLE sometimes a friend, My Family I salute my brother, MY STALKER AND ASSAILANT
I have a wide selection of holiday presents


from new books, some dvd's treats and toys


i missed 2 parties due to the stalking

cards are arriving in the mail


complete with silly holiday jokes


and reflecting my diverse heritage


where different holidays clash

and humour about the differences


from childish joy in different...
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Posted by danusia007   in My Family I salute my brother, My Family SISTER, MY HEALING CIRCLE my books
Return to the Hundred Acre Wood

by David Benedictus

in the tradition of A> A> Milne and Ernest H Shepard


2009


isbn 978-0-525-42160-3

Tags: it was a birthday present

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A thumb nail sketch

30 September 2009
Posted by danusia007   in MY HEALING CIRCLE My Music, MY HEALING CIRCLE My Movies, MY HEALING CIRCLE my books, My Family SISTER, My Family OLDER BROTHER Perp and Victim, My Family NEPHEW, My Family MOM the delimna perp and survivor, My Family I salute my brother, career and UNIVERSITY, career and COLLEGE, ACTIVIST, PROFILE
I am a survivor


I am an university graduate


I continue to attend college and university

through a self directed study program

Most of my family is dead

My beloved baby brother died in 2010

My Mom is alive



I have a nephew

he was my sister's son


I really enjoy music

I really enjoy books

I really enjoy movies

I write poetry

I...
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Tags: PROFILE

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I am missing my brother

30 September 2009
Posted by danusia007   in cancer and ptsd, My Family I salute my brother
the two of us were welll known for getting into trouble





moi ?

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Posted by danusia007   in cancer and ptsd, career and COLLEGE, career and UNIVERSITY, CLINICAL SERVICES health serv..., CLINICAL SERVICES housing, CLINICAL SERVICES support, My Family I salute my brother, My Family SISTER, MY HEALING CIRCLE sometimes a friend, MY RAPIST, MY STALKER AND ASSAILANT, MY STORY, support
I am stunned still from all of the deaths in the last 5 years


I am at a loss for words by the insensitivity of some supports


and the kindness of others

Tags: Please share my grief a healing circle

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Posted by danusia007   in My Family I salute my brother, My Family MOM the delimna perp and survivor, My Family NEPHEW
this year I am back to having mixed emotions about mom


her health my heath



her safety my safety


my nephew


my brother


my family

Tags: mom perp and victim

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Posted by danusia007   in My Family I salute my brother, My Family NEPHEW
August 16 2007 9:34 am

as a baby

2 teddy bears

a musical bear

a red and yellow teddy bear

it is okay for even the boys to get them

big brother a giant black and yellow panda bear and a purple and white bunny his velveteen rabbit

baby brother a black poodle and a green and blue teddy bear

as a schoolaged child

sis gets them as christmas...
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Tags: tributes reflections

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Please note that some of the content here may be triggering.

What I write here is just me being honest with myself. Mostly just venting about things, realisations, and my path through healing.

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