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poem (about long therapy break)

Posted by HiddenPoet , 05 January 2014 · 99 views


time edges forward in minuscule intervals
painful in its slowness
I don't need to check
the weeks, days, hours that I have to endure
until I am with you once more;
time is counting itself
with with every heartbeat
measuring the moments left
until I can sink
into your yellow couch again.
I hold my breath
through endless lo...



Posted by HiddenPoet , 28 October 2013 · 107 views

I can't be
where you are
in your presence
your seeing eyes
observing my broken soul
I am not deserving
of your gentle kindness
your soothing voice
the warm space between us
not deserving
of understanding
not deserving
of life
I have broken
my connection to you
that once kept me breathing
I have broken 'us'
and now the ou...


longing (for my absent t)

Posted by HiddenPoet , 18 October 2013 · 130 views

I imagine you
along the great ocean road,
engaged in your passion,
wind gliding across your tanned arms
freedom in your heart.
You are framed
by dense forest,
magnificent cliffs,
wild surf
smashing jagged rocks,
and endless blue seas.
I know this place well;
but I don't know you.
I imagine you and I long for you.
I am overcome...



Posted by HiddenPoet , 13 March 2013 · 138 views


In my mind you appear so easily
your image glides
across my consciousness
stirring up a deep longing
and suddenly
I find myself wanting
to be where you are

Pictures of you and I form in my mind
curling upwards
like smoke from an ancient fire
smouldering silently
in a fertile underworld
smoke writes words across the sky
telling an e...


From: Complicated process with my psychoanalytic T

Posted by HiddenPoet , 20 January 2013 · 139 views

I have been referred to a specialist private clinic for assessment/management of medication. I found out today I have been allocated to a man who is probably fairly new out of psychiatry school. I didn't feel I could be choosy so didn't say anything. But I am worried about opening up.
What usually happens in these situations is that I present as v...


From: Sexual feelings emerging in relation to therapist

Posted by HiddenPoet , 26 October 2012 · 141 views

A difficult topic. I have been struggling with this for some time and have been too self-conscious to talk about it. I don't really understand why it is happening and I feel
ashamed about it. I know it is related to the past but it is so uncomfortable to talk about. It just makes me cry a lot.

Has anyone else struggle with sexual feelings in relat...


From: Psychoanalytic psychotherapy/psychoanalysis

Posted by HiddenPoet , 26 October 2012 · 89 views

I have tried a lot of different therapies over the years - CBT, mindfulness, existential, psychodrama, Jungian, Gestalt, group therapy.

I have been doing psychoanalysis for the past two years. It appeals to me because the aim is to explore childhood issues in a much deeper way which leads to a deep level of insight and change. It is also very unstruc...


when music is the only place for solace...

Posted by HiddenPoet , 01 May 2012 · 78 views

"sometimes every inch of you is bruised
And there's nothing left to prove,
so just hold the one you can't love
in the sweet arms of a tune"
- Missy Higgins

I love Missy Higgins - local Aussie girl from my town. I have been listening to her new song on repeat today. Her songs have traveled with me through many a difficult time in m...


Whispering leaves

Posted by HiddenPoet , 31 January 2012 · 88 views

Whispering leaves,
you beckon to me once again.
I see you dancing, singing,
floating freely
in the freshening breeze
that brings the cool change
and releases
the angry, penetrating heat.

What words
are you whispering
to each other?
to me?
What messages
do you bring?

You beckon me
into a magical wood,
a faraway place
of laughing children's voice...


Fractured glass (a therapy poem)

Posted by HiddenPoet , 30 January 2012 · 124 views

Am I so easily broken
that one gentle contact
causes me to fracture,
send crashing
all my jagged edges?
My fragile self collapses
with a breath of your warmth,
and sends shards
of unapologetic self loathing
flying angrily at me,
until the smiling facade
falls unceremoniously apart.

My fractured glass
leaves me exposed,
lying before you,...

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