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Poem

13 March 2013
Posted by HiddenPoet  
WORDS WITHOUT SHAME

In my mind you appear so easily
your image glides
across my consciousness
stirring up a deep longing
and suddenly
I find myself wanting
to be where you are

Pictures of you and I form in my mind
curling upwards
like smoke from an ancient fire
smouldering silently
in a fertile underworld
smoke writes words across the...
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I have been referred to a specialist private clinic for assessment/management of medication. I found out today I have been allocated to a man who is probably fairly new out of psychiatry school. I didn't feel I could be choosy so didn't say anything. But I am worried about opening up.
What usually happens in these situations is that I...
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Posted by HiddenPoet  
A difficult topic. I have been struggling with this for some time and have been too self-conscious to talk about it. I don't really understand why it is happening and I feel
ashamed about it. I know it is related to the past but it is so uncomfortable to talk about. It just makes me cry a lot.

Has anyone else struggle with sexual feelings...
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I have tried a lot of different therapies over the years - CBT, mindfulness, existential, psychodrama, Jungian, Gestalt, group therapy.

I have been doing psychoanalysis for the past two years. It appeals to me because the aim is to explore childhood issues in a much deeper way which leads to a deep level of insight and change. It is also very...
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"sometimes every inch of you is bruised
And there's nothing left to prove,
so just hold the one you can't love
in the sweet arms of a tune"
- Missy Higgins

I love Missy Higgins - local Aussie girl from my town. I have been listening to her new song on repeat today. Her songs have traveled with me...
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Whispering leaves

31 January 2012
Posted by HiddenPoet  
Whispering leaves,
you beckon to me once again.
I see you dancing, singing,
floating freely
in the freshening breeze
that brings the cool change
and releases
the angry, penetrating heat.

What words
are you whispering
to each other?
to me?
What messages
do you bring?

You beckon me
into a magical wood,
a faraway place
of laughing...
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Posted by HiddenPoet  
Am I so easily broken
that one gentle contact
causes me to fracture,
splinter,
send crashing
all my jagged edges?
My fragile self collapses
with a breath of your warmth,
and sends shards
of unapologetic self loathing
flying angrily at me,
until the smiling facade
falls unceremoniously apart.

My fractured glass
leaves me exposed,
bare,
lying...
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Posted by HiddenPoet  
20.10.11

Georgia Iris.
My first child,
My little one,
My love.
I haven't been able to write
a single word for you
Until now.

On this day, your anniversary,
There was no push into life for you;
No cries,
No mothers milk.
They gave me a pill to dry me up,
To erase my maternal feeling.
They could not evaporate the mother in me.
I cried for you...
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Mother = Alone

29 January 2012
Posted by HiddenPoet  
20.11.11

I am sitting by the back window
Watching a moth circling the light,
Like my thoughts circling an awareness
Of a painful truth,
Not yet known.

I saw my mother today
Her cheek offered for an air kiss,
cold, empty, no contact made.
The Christmas I am not invited to
Was never spoken of.
Presents for my children,
Given from the fairy...
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Mirroring rain

29 January 2012
Posted by HiddenPoet  
Amazing, incredible, beautiful
rain.
all-encompassing,
expressive,
unapologetic wailing
from the darkening skies above.
It mirrors me.
My insides and my outsides
finally matched;
the whole world is weeping and purging,
opening up and letting go.
Like an attuned mother (I didn't have)
mirroring the baby (I didn't get to be);
the...
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