Wash me away
Last night I cried so much that I woke up with a swollen face and looked like a monster. I've survived so much in my life, but what was the point? So I could make it to THIS point? I don't even care what happens to me anymore, I just want the pain to stop. I don't believe anymore that a day will come when things will get better. Life has convinced me that things will only get worse for me.
I'm dying inside. I know it's cowardly, but I truly wish I was never born. I know it's weak of me to say and feel such things, but I'm being honest. I wish I could just swim out to sea and let the waves wash me away into nonexistence.