Everything just keeps going wrong no matter what I do. I'm angry and fed up, and I'm sick of trying so hard and having one thing after another go wrong. I don't know if it's some kind of test or life lesson, but I've had enough. I'm angry and frustrated and sick of trying so hard and not succeeding. I'm tired of looking at the bright side, being self-deprecating, trying to think positively. None of that ever changes my dire circumstances or even makes me feel any less stressed. Instead it feels like false hope, or some stupid blind faith things will get better when they only keep getting worse. I'm in a very dark place right now, and it's nearly impossible at this point to think anything will ever get better or change. How many more bad things have to happen until I truly hit rock bottom?