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Small flashback

Posted by Irishleo , 05 December 2011 · 40 views

Last night I had another flashback. Well, I'm not exactly sure if it counts as another one, but it's a more detailed version of a flashback I've had previously. I am not positive if I am mixing up two seperate memories or if they're from the same day, but I'm pretty sure it's the same memory. The new part I have remembered is that in addition to examining the blood in my underwear, there was what I now know is semen. I didn't understand what it was though at that age, and showed it to my sister to see if she knew what it was. I remember her shrugging, saying it was normal because she had that in her underwear sometimes too.

I wish these memories would just hurry up and come all at once. It would be easier to deal with, and then I could try to start healing myself.

((safe hugs))

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