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enraged and humiliated

Posted by Irishleo , 30 May 2013 · 204 views

First of all, I apologize in advance for profanity in this entry. I am so fucking mad I feel like I'm going to explode. To make a long story short, my mom is doing some dealings with an attorney whose only employee is my arch enemy. This girl has always hated me with a passion, because 15 years we both dated the same guy (at different times but she ha...



Posted by Irishleo , 24 May 2013 · 191 views

Over the last few months it's become clearer to me that I just CAN'T hold this secret within anymore. What he did to me has been trapped inside for so long, for so many years. It's been eating away at me, tearing at the fabric of my soul. But I still haven't made up my mind about going to the police or not. WHY is it a difficult decision?...


Dreaming of freedom

Posted by Irishleo , 02 May 2013 · 184 views

I feel tormented, as if I will never be free of him. How do I release the little girl trapped inside of me from what he did? Am I crazy to fantasize about the adult me being able to burst into my childhood bedroom and attack him before he can hurt the child I was? Such pointless thoughts, and yet I have them often. I never imagine anyone else rescuing me...

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