From: Anxiety won't let go
I constantly need someone to tell me everything is OK. And if they do, I don't believe them. It never feels OK.
That is so me, too. My boyfriend feels so hurt when I don't believe him when he says that things are ok. I want to feel reassured so badly...but I just don't.
You wrote that "it's crazy". That's something that helps me get ahold of myself/mind sometimes. I tell myself, "This is craziness. You don't have to listen to it. It doesn't mean anything. It isn't real." The only way I get through/out of my anxiety is by trusting that what I'm feeling IS NOT an accurate reflection of what is going on in my life. I pick a time in the future that I will allow myself to think about the things I'm obsessing over so that I know they will be dealt with, just not right now. I'm not always able to do it, though.
I obsess about little things I've done or seen, too - saying the wrong thing, being awkward, a dirty toilet, even thoughts I've had. With this, I try to just distract distract distract. I watch a lot of TV shows because it is one of the few things that take up enough of my attention that my mind won't wander onto things that don't help me to think about.
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