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Love vs. Hate

13 October 2011
Posted by JacquiLeigh 
I hate...

The nightmares, the flashbacks, feeling vulnerable and exposed, being triggered, being outcast by my family, feeling invisible, knowing I can't escape the memories, knowing more memories will come, accepting that I'll never be normal, feeling trapped in my own life.

I hate all of it.



I love...

My amazing boyfriend, knowing everything I've gone through and I haven't given up yet.

Those are the two things keeping me here, keeping me from losing it entirely. I can isolate events and aknowledge that I'm strong. When I don't feel strong anymore, I have Josh. That's my battle plan, plain and simple, and I'm sticking to it!

It's amazing how two things can outweigh a dozen so easily :)/>

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2 Comments On This Entry

focus on what you love hon :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug:
anabella, 13 October 2011 - 05:29 AM
I'm really trying. Thanks for the hugs :)
JacquiLeigh, 14 October 2011 - 02:08 AM
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